Sohams personal Diary

Soham's weekly diary! 25November'22

25 November 2022, Friday

805pm-916pm

Dear future Soham,

Hello sir. The last time I had written was a month back. A lot has happened since then. I've wanted to write but my routine just got the better of me. Not today. I will be summarizing the last 35 days into this one piece of beautifully written diary entry.

It's been a wild ride of studying, friendship, girlfriendship, bestfriendship.

Speaking of my studies, my Pre-Board examinations will be conducted from the 5th of this December till the 16th of December. Our whole books from all subjects are coming, and the 10th grade, is the glorified grade. You do good here, you do good in life is what people say. So when you join pressure+studies you get a result of no studies. The thing about me is that I will study, if I understand what's going on. Don't get me wrong, this doesn't mean that just because something is a little challenging to understand that I will not even try to make an effort to learn it. NO, instead I am going to put in the time to make sure I know what is going on. And only when I do that, I can christ it "studying". 

I have 2 approaches to effective studying

1) Either I know what is exactly going on, LOGICALLY

2) I can related the topic to something personal to me.

I feel that if I donnot have even one of these while i am seated to study, my studying is not even worth it. It feels like a time waste. So instead, I always study with dedication. I've been saying this for a long time and I am going to repeat it, "Karo toh theek se karo, ya mat karo." translating exactly to, "If you're doing it, do it properly or don't do it at all".

I am lagging behind on a few chapters, I would say that for the time that I am writing this that I am at a descent position with regard to my journey. I here and there acknowledge that only 2 weeks are left. 4 days ago I decided that we are just going to do it. I know that I don't need a lot of time. I can finish my course. All I require is focus and some silence. I have taken a decision, it will now be followed. That's a promise.

Speaking of my drama school, just to revise, my house is called "Peter Pan". We have about 30 students in our batch. 7 out of them are in the, 'Core Team'. Withing which are 5 core team members, a production manager and a director. I am the production manager for this year. Very proud, very happy to be here. This is because I love being a leader. Out of the 3-4 things I think I should do in life, 1 is to be a manager or something just like. I love the aspect of it to tell someone to do something and they do it. Overall, I love being on the top of everything. But this year, my friend Christelle, she is the director. I couldn't have been happier because Christelle and I go back a long time. We've been great friends. So I was extremely happy. However there are 2 seniors to us, who are just in the core team. This might be because they were not a part of the process last year. I was a core team member in 2021 while Christelle was the production manager. To be brutally honest, I was a small child. I just did things. I took things up all the time. So much so, that I was not studying for the duration of it. Those 2 months were intense focus on this, from parents to costume to the edit. I was on top of everything. 

But these 2 seniors, Arpan and Larissa are great friends. They try to undermine me all the time. Maybe because they're seniors, maybe because I am not mature enough. I am not sure. This really got to me in the start. It has slowly worn down. But what I did was to not be biased or anything. Just focus and work as a team. I tried confronting them once, it didn't exactly go as to plan. Again to be honest, I have had a really sad time just after our weekly Friday calls for summarizing what will be happening on the class the day after. I just become so dull and gloomy. Almost crying. But then I pull myself up. And its mostly fine.

I'd like to talk about this because of the recent event of our promo video. I had taken up responsibility for it. I wanted to lead this because I led it last year also. Larissa and Arpan snatched every bit of it they could. It felt like an attack on me. I am so glad that I had Annanya and Manya to back me. Honestly phenomenol humans. But during the edit. On the last call, Larissa joined along Christelle and I. My whole thing was ready, but Larissa came and changed the whole thing. I said no to it, she said yes. So Christelle was the deciding vote. She favoured her. Which is fine with me, I am mad that it got changed. In hindsight, it was a better decision.

So when everything was done, I posted a message on our group regarding the video. And with it I added a small line, "Would like to appreciate Larissa and Christelle for help in the edit and Arpan for the banner idea". To which Larissa responded with, "looks great, good job on the edit soham!!" and Arpan DM'd me, "Also good job on the editing" and put, "It's amazing, great job with the editing soham!" on the group. This made me absolutely joyous. It jsut shows you that you don't need a lot to form a bond. All it took was a little bit of respect. This is great. I have learnt a super important lesson in team management, I shall not forget this.

Let's come to my friends now, I love these guys more than anything. They're cute, they're hot, they're mad, they're lovely. 10th grade is almost at an end now, but it's only now that we're getting closer than ever, it's now that we're getting to know each other even more. Our 9th grade would've been offline if there was no covid. We could've spent more time. But sadly its all coming down now. Our love for each other is at is highest but our time is not much.

These days we go to school only to have fun. Studied happen and will happen, this 10th grade of 2022-23 is not coming back. So we just do whatever. Take for instance chemistry period today or Physics on Monday. Today in chemistry there were 15 people and the teacher wasn't teaching. This girl, Shachi had knitting needles because of an art project. I just took them and started doing a Gujrati dance called Garba with another girl Vanathi. Then I gave one stick to another girl named Anusha, Verma is her last name and that's how she's known. So I was like lets do some harry potter shit. I said Vamos. She said Expelliarmus, my wand flew from my hand. Then as I dived to pick it up, I said Avada Kedavra. And killed her while I was on the floor. This was all in front of the class and the teacher is staring at us. Then she pasted me. In Physics, Akshiti and I went to the teacher and said that ma'am its getting too hot. And fell on the floor. Along fell everyone else on their seats and it was a mad scene.

Recently, Pranay, His girl, my girl and I we all go together during the breaks to the canteen or walking. We've all come closer. 

Talking about my girlfriend, BRO I MADE OUT WITH HER. HOLY SHIT. FIRST KISS IN LIFE BRO. LIKE PROPER. IT WAS LIKE A PECK. BUT LIKE I FELT HER LIKE LIPS AND THEN HER LIP BALM WAS ON LIKE THE INSIDE OF MY MOUTH. IT WAS SO MAD. ALL THE CLOSE PEOPLE WERE IN CLASS(photo on the cover and there are more). THEY STARTED TO LEAVE AND THEN THEY SAID COME NO COME NO. I SAID WAIT, YOU GO. I ASKED AMOGHA IF SHE WANTED TO MAKE OUT. I ASKED HER IF SHE KNEW HOW TO. SHE SAID NO. THEN I ASKED PRANAY AND KYNA(his girlfriend). SHE SAID, JUST DO IT. SO THEY ALL LEFT. THEN I LIKE. I HELD HER HAND. THEN I HELD HER FACE. THEN I JUST WENT FOR IT. HAHAHA. I FELT HER LIPS, HER MOUTH, SALIVA. IT FELT A LITTLE WEIRD, BUT IT WAS FINE. THEN I TOOK MY MOUTH OUT. ALL OF THOSE KNEW WE WERE MAKING OUT, I RAN FROM THERE AND THEY ALL WERE SINGING LOVE SONGS AND CONGRATULATING AND WE WERE ALL LAUGHING. MAD, ABSOLOUTE MAD. WHO KNEW THAT THIS BOY WOULD LAND A GIRL, WHO KNEW HE'D SIT WITH HIS HAND AROUND HER SHOULDER EVERYDAY IN THE BREAK, WHO KNEW HE'D FALL ASLEEP ON HER SHOULDER. WHO KNEW? WHO KNEW HE'D KISS HER ON THE LIPS. THIS IS BONKERS. ABSOLUTE BONKERS. FIRST KISS AT AGE OF 15. IT HAPPENED AT AROUND 3:18PM TODAY ON THE 25TH OF NOVEMBER 2022. 

Till later,

Your's truly,

Soham