Saving Me

Chapter 6

Later that evening, I was allowed to go home with strict instructions to rest. Lexi  said she would stay with me to keep an eye on me. I still can't believe what happened, I've never been that bad before. I feel like an idiot, especially making a fool of myself in front of Callie like I did. 

"You ready?" Lexi asked, walking into my room.

"Yeah." With that, she grabbed my bag, and we headed out to the car. I couldn't wait to get home, I felt like I've been hit by a truck, and my whole body felt so weak. Half an hour later, we arrived back at my house, Lexi grabbed my bag, and we headed inside. As soon as we got inside, I took my shoes off and flung myself on the sofa. 

"Here," Lexi said, placing a glass of water on the table next to me with some painkillers.

"Thank you, you're amazing. You know that?" I smiled tiredly at her.

"Yeah, I know," she laughed before passing me a blanket.

"I want you to do something for me, Arizona."

"Anything."

"Please get some help, like a counsellor or AA or something." 

"Okay, I promise." 

"Thank you now, move over. Let's cuddle and watch a pitch perfect." I smiled as I moved so Lexi could sit next to me. Once she was comfortable, I placed my head on her chest, and she played the film. It wasn't long until I fell asleep. 

I woke up with the light beaming through my window. I was in my bed, and Lexi must have carried me up last night. I slowly opened my eyes, letting them adjust to the light. I looked at the clock on my side table, it was 11:30 am. I've never slept this late. I steadily sat up, my head pounding. I got up and put my slippers on before heading downstairs. 

"Morning." Amelia smiled as I walked into the kitchen, handing me a coffee.

"Morning, what are you doing here?" 

"Do I need a reason? Do come see you," she laughed

"No, of course not." I smiled back, taking a sip of my coffee. I put my coffee on the side and went to the medicine cupboard and got some painkillers out. I got a glass of water and swallowed them, hoping they would kick in soon. I picked up my coffee and headed to the living room, Amelia followed me, and we sat on the sofa.

"So how are you feeling?" 

"horrible, my head is banging, i'm so tired, and I just hate myself for what happened, for worrying you and Lexi,"  sighed

"Hey, don't be silly. Everyone deals with things differently, but maybe this is the wake-up call you needed."

"it definitely was, I promised Lexi I'm gonna get help, and I will,"

"Good, because we hate seeing you like this. We can't help you unless you help yourself. You know we will always be there for you no matter what. "

"I know  thank you,"

"and don't worry about coming in tomorrow, take a few days off me and Lexi have got it covered and we aren't taking a no for an answer"  I knew better then to argue with Amelia.

Amelia stayed for about an hour as she said she had things to do at home. Once she left, I mustard the little energy I had to go upstairs and get a shower. I saw my reflection in the bathroom mirror, and I looked horrible. My hair was all over the place, my eye bloodshot red and swollen , and I looked like death. I got in the shower, and the water felt amazing as it ran down my body, making me feel more alive. 

Lexi came back not long after I got out of the shower, and we just spent the rest of the day watching tele. The day passed rather quickly, and before I knew it, it was 9pm. It felt weird because normally I'd be getting ready to go out, but instead , I sat on the sofa in my Pj's drinking tea watching tele.

The next day....

I woke up at about 10:00 a.m., actually feeling a bit better than I have been, but still not 100%. I kept getting flashes from that night, and it made me cringe, What must Callie think of me. I tried to put her to the back of my mind as I got into the shower, I washed my hair and body. About 20 minutes later, I got out dried myself and got dressed into some joggers and a hoodie  since I don't plan on leaving the sofa today. 

Just as I reached the bottom of the stairs, there was a knock on the door. I opened the door and froze. It was Callie. She stood at my front door.  What must have only been seconds, but it felt like hours she spoke.

"Hi," she slyly smiled.

"Hi," 

"erm, I was wondering if we could talk." 

"er yeah, okay." I moved out the way and motioned for her to come in. I shut the door behind her and caught myself in the mirror. I look horrible, joggers, hoodies, wet hair, no makeup, and bags under my eyes. Great. I walked into the living room and sat on the sofa, and Callie sat next to me. She looked so beautiful and flawless, and she smelt amazing. 

"I hope you don't mind me just turning up at your door, I went to your work even though you told me never to go there, I needed to talk to you and explain but you wasn't in so Lexi gave me your address" Callie said. I'm gonna kill Lexi.

"About the other night.."

"Please don't," I interrupted

"I'm so ashamed of myself, and I'm so sorry," I whispered, looking down at my hands.

"Well, don't be, the truth is I actually haven't stopped thinking about you since that night." My heart fluttered at her words. I couldn't help but smile. 

"I was so taken by you. Why do you think I came and spoke to you? Why do you think I let you take me to my hotel room when I've never done that before. It was the best sex I've ever had, " she laughed before continuing.

"I thought we had something special but then I woke up and you wasn't there and not going to lie it hurt but I just kept saying it was just a one night stand and this is how they go, that it was all in my head and that I'd never see you again.  To be honest, I actually only came over this weekend in the hope of seeing you out again. Then I came into the café, not knowing that's where you worked and I couldn't believe it, you were there in front of me. I was happy to see you again but sad at the same time because you acted like you didn't remember me or you did but regretted it so that's why I never said anything because I didn't want to make a fool of myself.  Anyway I went out that night like I planned, hoping you would be out but I couldn't see you and then that women started dancing with me and I thought it would be a good distraction so I carried on, then she kissed me so I kissed her back because I thought no point in hoping for something that wasn't going to happen. Then suddenly you stood there and I could have kicked myself for what I just did and I tried to explain but you never let me, your words hurt so much. I froze, and before I could say anything, you were gone. I followed you, yano, but then I saw you with that lass, and my heart broke. I stood outside crying when I saw you come out, so again I followed you to try and talk, but you were wasted. The next thing I saw, you passed out. Once Lexi turned up, I left because I knew you wouldn't want to see me when you woke up, and that's even if you remembered what happened. But I kept replaying what you said and  Knowing you thought what we had was special as well I couldn't not come and try and talk to you, if you didn't want anything to do with me then at least I tried"

I just sat there, not saying anything, I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I don't know what came over me, but I just started laughing.

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