Saving Me

Chapter 10

Callie's POV contin...

We carried on talking and eating, and it was amazing. I still can't get over how beautiful she is.

"How's your lasagne?"she asked

"Here," I put a bit on my fork and leaned over the table. She leaned forward, and I placed the fork into her mouth. I then pulled it out and leaned back, watching her face as she ate the food, the smile never leaving my face.

"Oh my God, that is amazing," she laughed.

We finish our food, then order another drink and sit there and just carry on talking. It's weird we've spoken so much, yet there is so much I don't know about her , I can't wait to learn more about her, I just want to know everything. We sat there she had just told me a funny story and we were both laughing. Suddenly, I hear the door open, and Arizona instantly stops laughing. Her face turns white, and I could see her eyes tearing up. I was about to ask what was up, but she spoke before I had the chance.

"I can't do this. I'm sorry I have to go." she quickly got some money from her bag, placed it on the table, and ran out of the restaurant. I was frozen in shock, not a clue what just happened.

A few minutes later, I managed to move. I placed the money on the table, picking up Arizona's money and putting it into my bag. I ran out and got to my car. I drove down the street, Arizona couldn't have gotten far. I was right a few minutes later. I saw her walking up the street. I pulled up just ahead of her.

"Arizona, get in, let me take you home,"

"Leave me alone, Callie." she was crying. It broke my heart seeing her like this

"Just let me take you home," I begged.

"Fine." We got into my car and drove in silence the rest of the way back to Arizona's. The whole time, tears fell from her eyes. Once we pulled up, just practically jumped out of the car and ran into her house. I quickly followed her.

" Talk to me," I say as I sit next to her on the sofa.

"Arizona, please, I hate seeing you like this" silence.

"Do you trust me?" I asked. She nodded.

"Good because you can tell me anything"

Arizona's POV

I lay there crying my eyes out. I feel like a fucking idiot. I ruined the whole night and now I'm laid on my sofa crying, looking a mess. The most perfect girl next to me. Why did this have to happen. After a few minutes I start to calm down. I sit up and look at Callie, a slight smile appeared on my face as I see her sat there holding a box of tissues. I took a few and dried my face. I look back at Callie, its now or never. I took a deep breath and begun.

"I saw my ex" she stayed silent.

"She destroyed me. I was in love with her and thought she was with me. She was everything to me, my world, my life. We was together for 2 years, the happiest 2 years of my life, until it all came crashing down" tears started to spill from my eyes. I feel Callie place a hand on my leg, sending electricity up my leg. I carried on.

"One Tuesday we spent a night in a hotel after going out to eat, it was amazing, everything was perfect, at least I thought it was. Then the following Saturday I barely heard from her, I called, text everything, she just ignored me. I messaged her friends they ignored me as well. I was going out of my mind because I could see they had been read. Sunday still nothing, next thing Sunday evening I get a message from her and I was relieved until I read it" the memories making the tears spill faster.

"She was breaking up with me, saying her head wasnt in the right place, that she needs to think of herself, I felt sick, I jumped into my car and drove to her house. She wouldnt let me in at first. I had to beg. I spend half an hour trying to get her to change her mind but it didn't work. She said I had to go because she was going to her friends. I ran out the house and sat in my car crying so much I couldnt even breath. She drove past me and saw me and just left." I had to stop as I started crying even more and I couldn't speak. A few minutes later I calmed enough to carry on.

"go on" Callie urged giving my leg a gentle squeeze"

"I had to go home, so I drove home, crying, barely breathing, not caring if I crashed or died or anything, anyway the following week I barely ate or slept or anything. I was holding onto hope that if I gave her space she would come back to me. Only to find out from a friend that she was in a relationship with someone else and has been since the day she broke up with me. My heart broke like never before. I couldn't make sense of it. I tried to confront her about it instead she told me to go die and that no one will ever want me and some other stuff. From then on I was broken. I barely ate, I didn't want to sleep because I would dream about her. I didn't want to live anymore. I actually tried a few times to kill myself because I didn't want to live without her. Anyway, She is now engaged to the women she left me for and it still hurts so much. Every time I see her it brings up the pain and hurt all over again. She came into the restaurant tonight and I couldn't stay, I'm sorry for ruining everything. I'm a mess so I'm sorry, I understand if you want to leave"

I waited for Callie to say something but instead she just pulled me into a hug which caused me to cry more. We stayed like that for awhile. Being in her arms made me feel safe and I knew I could tell her anything.

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wow that was a bit harder then I thought....that what happened with Arizona and her ex is what happened to me every detail so be nice it took a lot to write it.

feedback is welcome :)