Saving Me

Chapter 17

Arizona's POV....

"Arizona, eat something, please," Amelia pleads as I stare at the plate of toast in front of me.

"I'm not hungry," I say. I've barely eaten the past 2 weeks. If I have, it's only been little bits here and there. It's not that I'm not hungry, I just can't seem to stomach anything, and it makes me feel sick.

"Please," Amelia begs. I sigh before taking a few bites, chewing slowly.

"Thank you." she half smiles, not taking her eyes off me.

This is how it's been the past 2 weeks, since that night. Amelia and Lexi haven't taken their eyes off me. Seriously, the only time they do is when I go to the toilet, and even then, they stand outside the door. They are either both here or take turns, I'm never alone, when that's all I want to be. However, they know me too well and know that if I was alone, I'd do something stupid, I know I would as well.

"Hey," Lexi says, walking into the living room. She looks nearly as bad as I do. I've barely been sleeping, so neither has she, and I feel so awful. I tell her to sleep but she doesn't listen to me.

"Hey, how was it today?" Amelia asks.

"erm yeah, it was okay," She says, coming to sit next to me on the sofa.

"Okay?" Amelia quizzed. Lexi looked back and forth from me to Amelia before stopping on me.

"Callie came in." I could feel my stomach sink at the sound of her name. My heart pounding.

"What did she want?" Amelia snarls, before I had a chance to say anything.

"she wanted to see if Arizona was in, I told her you wasn't and that you don't want to see or speak to her, then told her to leave, she left crying her eyes out"

"I hate what she has done to you, but I must admit she looks awful Arizona, nearly as awful as you" My heart broke, I love her, I hate knowing she's suffering even if she did bring in on herself.

"Wh-what else did she say?" I ask.

"That she loves you, that all this is killing her, and she just wants to explain." All I could hear was that she loves me. I couldn't help but smile a little at that, even if it was just for a second.

"Yeah, I bet she does," Amelia barks sarcastically.

"I don't know, Amelia."

"Don't tell me you believe her,"

"If you saw what I saw, it would be hard not to, She looked heartbroken," Lexi said

"LEXI YOU CAN'T BE SERIOUS, OR DID YOU FORGET WHAT SHE DID TO ARIZONA?" Amelia yells 

"OF COURSE I HAVEN'T," Lexi yells back.

"Please stop," I beg, tears rolling down my face.

"Sorry," Lexi says, moving closer to me, pulling me into her.

"Yeah, sorry , how about we go for a walk, get some fresh air?" Amelia suggests.

I reluctantly agree. I feel like I could do with some fresh air since I've barely left the house the last 2 weeks. We got out coats and shoes on and headed out the house. Fresh air has never felt so good. The cold, crisp air of autumn makes me feel more alive. We decided to walk into town to get some food to take home, even though I said I was fine, they weren't having any of it. We walked down the street and were about to cross the road when I stopped, frozen, the sight in front of me breaking my heart. Callie sat in her car, crying her eyes out, and my eyes started filling up seeing her like this. Before I knew what I was doing, I was walking to her car.

"Arizona," Amelia yells after me, I just ignore her.

The closer I got to the car, the faster my heart went. I gently tapped on the window , causing Callie to snap her head towards me, shock evident on her face. God, she looks awful, still beautiful, but her eyes were red and puffy, her skin pale and dull, she looked like she had no life left in her.  She hesitantly rolled the window down, tears still streaming down her face.

"Can I come in?" I ask. I don't know what happened to me. It's like someone has taken over my body. I shouldn't be doing this, but seeing the person you love in this state changes things.

"er...erm yeah," she whispers, unlocking the door. I slowly open it and climb in.

"What are you doing here?" I ask, surprised at how calm I sounded.

"I erm I came to see you but you wasn't there so I left and this is how far I got because I couldn't drive properly with crying, I'm sorry" she cries.

"I'm so sorry I hurt you," she cries, placing her hand on my thigh, I instantly wince moving my leg away. She seemed to notice the wince as worry covered her face, but she didn't say anything.

"You broke me, Callie."

"I know, and I broke myself, I should have told you at the beginning, and I'm so so sorry."

"You're married and have a kid Callie,  how did you think it was okay to keep that from me?"

"I don't know, I really don't."

"Was it all just a game to you?"

"no not at all, I'm in love with you Arizona, as soon as I saw you, I knew, I was going to tell you about Mark and Sofia that night but somehow you found out and wouldn't let me explain" I couldn't stop the butterflies fluttering at those 6 words.

"Explain then," I said after a few seconds. This point tears were starting to spill from my eyes.

"I have a 3 year daughter called Sofia me and her dad Mark are married, but we aren't together anymore. We haven't been for quite a while. I want a divorce, but he won't sign the papers. He's hoping we will get back together. I've told him so many times that it's not going to happen. He cheated on me twice. No way can I get back to him. I kept begging him to sign the papers, but it was no use, so I just gave up. I know I could get a lawyer or something, but I'm trying to keep it as calm as possible for Sofia's sake. "

"Okay," was all I could say.

"Okay," Callie quizzed

"I don't really know what else to say, I appreciate you telling me, but it's too late. You should have told me at the beginning that this wouldn't have happened. I would have been completely fine with it but instead you kept it from me for nearly 3 months, you made me fall in love with you, you had so many chances to tell me, you say you was going to tell me that night but how do I know. How do I know you're not just saying that because you got caught out? How can I believe anything you say? " Tears were streaming down my face now.

"I promise Arizona I was going to tell you,"

"Your promises don't mean anything to me anymore Callie, you lost that trust when you lied to me"

"Arizona, please," she cried. 

"I have to go now, please be careful and thank you for explaining, take care Callie" with that I opened the door and got out and walked away ,trying not to look back because if I did it would break me even more. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do, walking away from the person I love.

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