Saving Me

Chapter 8

A week has gone by and me and Callie and I  have spoken every day either by text or phone call, and it feels like a dream. The more I find out about her, the more I fall. It's the little things. Like how I can hear the smile in her voice when she talks about her family, especially her mum. She starts laughing when she tells me a funny story before she even starts telling it. How she always seems so interested in everything I have to say, always asking questions to find out more, like she actually wants to know, and it warms my heart.

Today, it's Friday, and not for the first time this week, I woke up with a smile on my face that spread even wider when I looked at my phone. 

Callie: Good morning beautiful, I thought if you're not doing anything tonight, I could come through  and see you if you like? xx"

Me "Morning :) I have nothing planned, and I would love that . What do you have in mindxx?"

Callie "  great and Maybe food and a movie?xx" 

Me: "Are you asking me on a date :D Haha, Im joking, but yeah, sounds good xx. "

Callie" Actually, yes, I am asking you on a date. that's only if you want to :) xx"

Me "I'd love to :)xx"

Callie: good :) Have a good day, babe, and I will see you about 7xx. "

Me:  "You too gorgeous xx" 

I sat on my bed, the biggest smile on my face, butterflies going dentally in my stomach. I am going on a date with Callie Torres. Suddenly, the realisation  hit me, and the smile started to fade, and I started to feel sick, panicked, and anxious. It all took over as my mind went into overdrive.  Am I ready? It's too soon, I'm not fully over her yet. I'm messed up physically and mentally. I don't deserve her. I don't deserve anyone. Before I knew it, I was crying, my chest hurting, my breathing out of control . I managed to grab my phone and message Lexi the 3 letters that will let her know I need her right now.

Me : SOS 

I slipped on the floor, clutching my chest, tears streaming down my face. Next thing I know, I hear Lexi running in the house.

"Arizona, where are you?" she shouted, I could hear her running around downstairs, but I couldn't speak. All I kept doing was crying. A couple of seconds later, she opened my bedroom door and ran to me and pulled me into her arms where we stayed  until I managed to calm down. 

"What happened?"  

"Callie asked me out on a date," 

"Isn't that a good thing?"

"I don't know Lexi. I mean, yes, I think she is incredible, the most amazing person I've ever met, but I don't think I can do it. "

"Because of her?"

"Yeah," I sobbed

"You can't keep letting her ruin your life," Lexi said

"I know, but it's not that easy. She destroyed me, Lexi, you know that. I can't seem to let her go. It still hurts so much when I think about her and what we had or could have had"

"I know, but you need to," She says, wiping tears from her my face. 

"You've been so happy the past week, the happiest I've seen you in a long time."

"I know."

"Arizona, look, Carina is a horrible person, and i'll say this again she doesn't deserve your tears, I know you aren't fully over her, but she didn't waste any time getting over you Once you let go of her, you will see her for what she really is, and maybe going on a date with Callie is the baby step you need. "

"bu.." 

"No, buts, it's simple. Does Callie make you happy?"

"Yes,"

"Do you like her?"

"Yes,"

"There, simple just take it slow and maybe talk to her about it, maybe she will understand." 

"yeah maybe" I sighed, wiping the tears from my face.

"Now come on, get ready. i'll make you a coffee," she says, standing up  putting her hand out for me to grab, which I did. She pulled me up and then left. 

I went to the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror, my eyes swollen and red, my face wet with tears. I sighed before turning the water on, I then washed my face, the water instantly soothing my eyes and face. I finished in the bathroom and then went back into my bedroom. I settled on light blue jeans and a black tank top, I did my hair and make-up and then went downstairs. 

"Here," Lexi smiled, handing me the coffee and some toast. I ate my toast, and we set off to work. 

The day passed at a normal pace, which I was glad at. All day, I haven't stopped thinking about my date with Callie tonight. One minute, I'm so excited next. I'm terrified, and on the verge of tears, that's how it's been all day. Soon, it was time to lock up. I cleared the tables and cleaned the floors while Lexi and Amelia cashed up. The closer it was getting to 7, the more nervous I became. You think someone who can hook up with random people can go on a simple date. However, this wasn't just a simple date. This was a date with Callie, a Goddess. 

"Right, i'm gonna go. Everything is all done," I said as I went into the office to get my stuff.

"okay thanks and, hey its going to be okay. Just go enjoy yourself and have fun." Amelia smiled 

"Call me if you need me okay, and deffo call me after" Lexi laughed.

"I will love you both." With that, I left the café and headed home. 

Once I got home, I got a shower, hoping the water would calm me down. A while later, I got out of the shower and went to my wardrobe to decide what to wear. I must have tried on like 4 or 5 different outfits until finally I decided on black jeans, a white top that stopped just above my belly button showing my lower abs. I then put a black blazer on top and then topped it off with red heels. I loosely curled my hair and applied a bit of makeup. By this point, it was 6:45pm, and I was a nervous wreck. 

I sat on the sofa when my phone rang. It was Lexi.

"Hey," 

"Hey, you okay?"

"Not really. I'm a nervous wreck," I sighed

"It's going to be okay, take some deep breaths and just have fun. Once Callie is there, you will be fine. Call me later," 

"I will do." I hung up, and a few seconds later, there was a knock at the door. I took a really deep breath, took one last look in the mirror  and opened the door.   

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