Recovery- Loki x Reader (Female)

chapter 27

a/n: HOLY SHIT GUYS THANK YOU FOR OVER 21K READS!!!! that is absolutely insane! also, sorry for not writing at all these last two weeks. i have had really bad writers block and have no idea what i want to happen next in this story. i am gonna be honest, i never planned for so many people to read my book, so i did little to no planning, i just simply didn't think anyone would like my story. so, if you guys have any suggestions please let me know because i have no idea what i am doing! also, i was wondering if you guys wanted y/n, or anyone else to be apart of the LGBTQ+ community? i noticed in the Loki trailer that he is genderfluid so i want to include that, but i kind of wanted other characters to be apart of it too. just let me know and enjoy the chapter! :)

ALSO TW: BODY CHECKING

Your Pov: 

Cold. That's all you felt when you woke up, and you were confused because of it. You don't remember everything from last night, so it kind of felt like a dream? Not the disappointment that came from waking up from a happy dream, but the confusion that you get when you wake up from a rather confusing one. You were confused as to why Tony had left, was it because you called him dad? Did he not like it? Did you ruin your relationship with Tony? You remembered your conversation in the elevator, but everything else was kind of a blur. 

You shot up out of bed to ask Tony what was wrong when two cold hands fell onto your shoulders. You were confused, you only remembered Tony being in the room when you fell asleep, this sent you into a slight panic. You looked up to be met with those emerald green eyes you knew so well, you let out a sigh of relief, but you were still confused about Tony. 

"Where's Tony? Why did he leave? How long have you been up here?" you questioned. 

"Slow down, slow down. First, Tony is in the lab, there was an emergency with Bruce that, ah what was it's name.... oh right 'Dum-E' he called it, couldn't help with. He said it just made everything worse. And I do not know how long I have been up here. At least a couple of hours though." he answered as he was lowering your body back onto the bed in a laying position. He just sat back onto your desk chair when he shot up, startling you. 

"I almost forgot, the doctor, Dr. Grey, gave me these pills to help you with any discomfort you have." he said as he conjured up a pill bottle and a glass of water. He placed them down on the table next to your bed, then he offered a hand to help you sit up. 

You took the pills then laid back down in your bed with his help. 

"Tony also left you this note for when you woke up." he said as he handed you a letter. It made you feel warm inside. Normally Tony would just text you so when he took the time to write the letter it made you feel important.

hey squirt, 

Dum-E wasn't doing his job today (as usual) so I had to go down to the lab to help jolly green in the lab. sorry for running out on ya. ill see you when you finally decide to wake up

-dad 

You were smiling like an idiot. It made your heart happy that he wasn't weirded out or anything by you calling him dad. You placed the letter on your bedside table for safe keeping and noticed that your regular essential oil diffuser was placed on your nightstand when you remembered it being in your hospital room last night. You looked around your room and noticed that everything that was in your hospital room was back in your room as well. 

"Thank you for bringing all my stuff back up here." you said. 

"Your welcome." he responded. 

You started to feel gross. Since you got back to the compound, you hadn't showered the 'Hydra' off of you and that made you feel sick. 

You sat up in bed, and walked towards your closet. You noticed that the pain was already gone from between your legs, which you were very thankful for, so it made it a lot easier to get around. 

You looked around in your closet for your biggest sweatshirt, but you couldn't find one that was right. They were either too small, or too itchy. You were wearing your favorite one currently, so you couldn't wear that one. 

"Try this one" Loki said from behind you. You jumped, you didn't know how long he was there. 

You looked to your right to see an arm holding out a very soft looking emerald green sweatshirt. You held it and your thoughts were right, it was the perfect sweatshirt, and big enough for your liking. 

Thank you

You thought as you grabbed a pair of sweatpants and underwear. You turned around to go into your bathroom and bumped into Loki's chest on accident. You apologized and rushed into your bathroom, locking the door behind you and leaning against it. 

You let out a sigh and made your way to your bathroom sink and set your pile of clothes down. You walked to your shower, turned on the water, and got out of your clothes. 

You were about to get in when you realized that you ran out of shampoo and your extra bottle was on the other side of the bathroom. You reluctantly walked to the other side of your bathroom, grabbed your shampoo and passed by your big mirror that is above your sink. 

You stopped where you were standing. You were looking in the mirror and you didn't notice the person looking back at you. She was the broken girl that first arrived at the tower. she wasn't the girl that was living at the compound. This girl looked so broken. 

Although that girl was now you. You were back where you started. 

You started to cry and your thoughts went to Loki who was probably right outside the bathroom door and could hear your thoughts. You quickly covered your mouth and went to your speaker to turn it on. You hoped that he couldn't hear what you were thinking if there was other noise to go along with it. You quickly put on the first album you saw and went back to the mirror. 

Your eyes raked over your body and you hated what you saw. 

She was basically only skin and bone. All the progress you made here went completely down the drain. She was bruised and beaten worse than before. They beat you more this time around since they were mad that you gotten away. 

You looked up to your face to see a massive scar that you hoped would heal, a couple of bruises and some big ass eyebags. You looked like you had been through hell, which you have. 

You turned to the side to see how bad it got and it was way worse than before. Your ribs were sticking out and you weren't even sucking in, you were basically a shell of who you used to be. You thought you looked hideous and disgusting. 

You cried for a little longer until you decided that you should get in the shower so Loki wouldn't ask you any questions when you went back into your room. 

You took as long a shower as you could with the water on the hottest setting. You decided to get out when you looked at your fingers and they looked like raisins. 

You put your clothes on, brushed your hair, did your skincare/haircare routines and went to open your door to go back in your room. You let out a deep breath and decided you should go back in and pretend that you were fine, but you knew you weren't. You just hoped Loki would. 

You opened the door and saw a very sad and mad Loki, standing directly in front of you with his arms crossed across his chest. 

Great!