Recovery- Loki x Reader (Female)

chapter 7

A/N: hi again, I am sorry for not updating yesterday. i had homework for 6 classes that were all due today. since i didn't update yesterday , i am trying to write two chapters today. if i don't finish the second one then i will publish it tomorrow . thank you for reading and enjoy the chapter :)

Your Pov:

Shit!

Oh my god! When did they get in here? How long have they been in here? You had thought. You started shaking as they just stared at you in shock. Loki looked almost angry, Thor just looked shocked. They also both shared a look of pity. You didn't want their pity.

You quickly put your shirt back on and ran out of the training room. You went to your room since you wanted to be alone for awhile. You thought about going to the roof, but it was too sunny out. As soon as you got to your room you told F.R.I.D.A.Y. to put your room on lockdown. That meant that no one could come in. You stood in your room slightly out of breath since you ran up three flights of stairs and were training before that happened.

You slid your door sobbing, shaking, and pulled your knees to your chest. You didn't want anyone to ever see the scars because you thought they were ugly. You didn't want anyone to ask any questions about what happened to you either. No one had ever seen them, not even Tony or Bucky, and they were basically your family. You sat there for what felt like hours. After you finally calmed down enough, you got up off the floor. You went to the shower because you wanted to wash the day away and just crawl up in bed.

When you got to your bathroom, you immediately turned on your shower to the hottest setting. As the shower was heating up, you grabbed an oversized hoodie and sweatpants from your closet. When you got back to the bathroom, you tested the water and it was the perfect temperature. You quickly undressed and you got a glimpse of your body in the mirror. You normally avoided looking at mirrors, but this time you couldn't. You just stared. God no wonder they looked so shocked. Their were scars littered all over your chest, stomach, back, and thighs. You started to cry again while looking at yourself.

You were still crying but decided to get in the shower anyway. When you first got in, you just stood there like a statue. Emotionless and still. You started crying again after that for the rest of the shower. You finally got out after you saw your fingers pruning up like raisins. When you got out, you didn't look in the mirror and quickly got dressed. You dragged yourself into your bed and grabbed a book from your bookshelf along the way. You lighted up your favorite candle and played music from one of your speakers.

You sat in your bed and just kept rereading the same sentence for the next several minutes. After you realized that you couldn't read right now, you decided to put Netflix on the T. V. You turned on your favorite show and turned off your speaker.

Do you need anything? Are you alright?

That thought entered your head and you immediately knew who it was. You didn't want to answer him but you knew if you didn't, he would come to your room and you did not want that.

I don't need anything Loki. I just want to be alone right now. If anyone asks, tell them I just started a new book.

You knew no one would bother you if you used that excuse.

Take as long as you need. I will be here to listen when you are ready.

You appreciated that. Anyone else would have wanted the story immediately and not cared as much about your boundaries. You couldn't imagine what Loki was doing to get Thor to calm down right now. With Thor, everything was different. He was loving, but he did not understand boundaries like at all.

You didn't even know what time it was, all you knew was that it was dark out. You didn't want to get out of your room, but you needed fresh air. You heard that the T.V. was on downstairs, so you assumed everyone was down there. You made your way up to the roof to look at the stars. You were carrying a blanket with you along with another book.

You got yourself situated on the roof and breathed in the fresh air. You looked around at the stars in awe. You used your powers to make a cloud in the shape of a bed. You laid the blanket on top and climbed on. You didn't like to use your powers often, but you did not want to lay on the dirty roof after already taking a shower. You got comfortable just stared at the stars for awhile, thinking.

You heard the door to the roof open behind you and nearly fell off your cloud.

"Y/N, I did not expect to see you up here. Also, my apologies for startling you." he said all of this while staring into your eyes. He apparently didn't even notice the cloud you were laying on. He started to walk back into the compound, but you wanted him to stay, you didn't want to be alone anymore.

"You can stay if you want." you stated in a small voice, afraid of rejection.

"As you wish." he started walking back over to you and you made another cloud bed for him. He just stared at you in awe. He didn't even know you had powers.

"That is a clever trick, you must teach it to me sometime." he said with a light chuckle. He climbed into the bed. You offered to make him a blanket and he declined which you found odd. You two just sat there for awhile in peace and quiet. It was hard to come by living with Tony and Sam so when there was some quiet time, you cherished it.

"You don't have to tell me your story if you do not wish to, I understand it." You didn't want to tell him, or anyone for that matter.

"I can tell you what my story is if that will make you feel better." you nodded at his sentence. If he told you about him, maybe it would be easier to tell him.