Recovery- Loki x Reader (Female)

chapter 24

A/N: HOLY SHIT GUYS THANK YOU FOR OVER 14K READS!!! that is literally insane!!!! thank you guys for reading and all the wonderful suggestions on the last author's note. i want to use @hollyykennedy 's with a little bit of @NovaStar119 's suggestion, but slightly change it a bit. i am also sorry for not updating in the last couple of days as i said i would. i honestly had huge writer's block until today. anyways, i hope you guys enjoy this chapter :)

Your Pov:

Bleach, all you could smell was bleach.

As you were opening your eyes, you were met with an all too familiar ceiling. You knew where you were immediately. Hydra.

You were petrified. You were also really confused. You remembered falling asleep with Loki in your hospital room. More importantly, you remembered getting out of here. 'Did that really happen? Was I really here this whole time?'

Those thoughts sent you into a state of panic. You fought against the restraints that tied you to the table you were on. You were blindsided by panic and did not even realize that your arms were starting to get burns from moving so much, or the fact that someone else was in the room with you.

When you finally realized that you physically could not escape your restraints, you started to cry out of frustration and sadness.

You continued to cry until you could not any longer. Just as you finished crying, someone else cleared their throat. This made you stop breathing completely and turn your whole body towards the source of the sound. What you saw scared you shitless.

Strucker.

You were so confused. You watched Loki literally choke the life out of him. How was he alive?

"You have been out for a long time Subject 0518. I didn't think we hurt you all that badly." he said. You hadn't even thought to look at your body. When you did, it made you want to vomit. You looked down to see a belly. A BIG BELLY.

You were pregnant.

Now. Now you were going to vomit, except you couldn't, no matter how hard you tried. You assumed you couldn't because they didn't feed you that day, or that week. Besides the belly, you were skin, bone, and covered in scratches and bruises.

You looked towards him with tears in your eyes. You had so many questions: 'How far along am I? Is it his? How long have I been here?'

SMACK!

You felt a pain across your left cheek. He must have gotten tired of you being so quiet. He always was mad at you if you answered too quickly, or not at all.

You started crying. You were so confused. Was your life with Loki and the Avengers all a dream? Had you been here the whole time? Did they even know you existed, or was it all a dream? All you wanted to do was climb to the roof and read, safely in Loki's arms.

SMACK!

You must have been in thought for awhile, or you just annoyed him. When you were in Hydra, he wanted you to never show emotions, he basically wanted you to be a robot, void of emotions. You made a promise to yourself to never be that way again, but at the same time, you did what you needed to survive.

You looked up at him with teary eyes to be met with a sadistic grin.

"You are to term, and we cannot wait any longer. I need my heir to be here already." he said to you. You knew what he was going to do by just the look on his face.

He kept eye contact with you while he reached towards the medical table to the right. You noticed that there was no syringe, or no gas. 'Oh god is he going to do this to me while I am awake?'

He started moving your gown up and in that moment, your blood went cold. 'Oh god, he is doing to do this while I am awake.' You started to squirm and yell 'NO' over, and over again.

You were squirming so bad that he had to call in others to help hold you down. Now this could have all been avoided if he had put you under, but you realized that he wanted you to feel the pain, he wanted you to suffer.

You looked towards your stomach to see the scalpel an inch away from your stomach.

Then it was all over.

You shot up and immediately looked to your stomach to see it flat. 'Thank god'. See, you never liked kids, you never even thought about having them. You simply didn't like them, and you were relieved to not see a pregnant belly.

You looked to your left to see a sleeping Loki, you instantly sighed in relief, then it felt like your throat was closing up. You knew that feeling all too well, you were about to cry. You looked towards Loki to see him sleeping peacefully. You didn't want to wake him up with your crying, so you grabbed one of the blankets in your room, and went to your safe space.

Normally, that was the roof. But in all honesty, you didn't want to travel all the way up there. You wrapped the blanket around yourself and limped out of your room. You cringed at the pain that was omitting from between your legs. You noticed a stray walker in the hallway, so you took it. As you were making your way towards the elevator, you were trying your best to hold in your tears, but you were failing. A couple fell, but tried your best to wipe them as soon as they left your eyes.

You finally found the elevator and hit the floor number "3". You finally let your wall down for a moment, this was when the floodgates opened. You were trying so hard to keep them inside that you hadn't even noticed that you made it to your floor until you heard someone clear their throat.

'Oh god who is it now?'