Logan/Logic X Virgil/Anxiety| ONESHOTS | (read for bio more info)

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TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️
Ingestion of medication
Death.

Virgil's POV:
It honestly was just a normal day so far. We filmed a video with Thomas,  Roman is doing his weird dramatic singing,  Patton is baking cookies,  Logan is silently reading a book on the couch trying to cancel out Roman's singing,  Remus is obnoxiously snoring on the floor behind the couch,  Janus is scrolling on Twitter probably looking for drama,  and I'm wrapped in a blanket laying sideways on the couch casually scrolling on my phone. Something started to feel a tiny bit off..  My head aches ever so slightly in little spurts but I just ignored it as best I could. Soon after I felt a small sharp pain in my stomach.. if went away for a couple minutes but soon arm back.. It hurt but I didn't have the energy to care too much at the time. Soon enough he started losing feeling in his arms.. this was when I finally sat up and went still to see what was going on. Logan glanced up from his book to see me and he carefully set it down, "Virgil is everything alright?"  He asked and I felt all of the sharp pains hit me all at once and I fell off the couch to my knees as I continued to lose feeling in my shoulders..  Once I did that it caught the attention of most everyone in the room. Logan quickly rushed over to me and knelt down to my level with a genuinely concerned expression which surprised me a bit..  "Virgil!! Hey.. what is going on? Are you okay?"  Logan asked putting his hands on my shoulders although I could barely feel his touch.   "I...I-I don't know I-.. Somethings wrong..."  I stammered out and I felt a tear fall down my cheek as she sharp pins throbbed throughout my body over and over again....  This is when the other sides came over to assist or just observe.  Patton suddenly gasped along with very shocked faces on the other's.. I was confused as to why they were suddenly so shocked and I looked at Logan... I could see something inside him. Something that doesn't happen often. Fear.     I looked down to see what everyone was concerned about and I suddenly gasped at the sight too....  All of the color on me.. was fading into black or grey.. or even just dust... my skin, my clothes, my hair... my entire body started draining of any color.. it looked like a black and white movie or something...  Logan's expression soon changed from fear to desperation.  He picked me up carefully and placed me down on the couch so I was lying down facing the ceiling, except I was facing Logan's horrified expression.  "...What could be happening right now..??.. wait.... It's Thomas!!! Thomas took medication that would remove his anxiety!!!... No.. Oh god no...."  Logan deduced in a panic before he took my hand and from what I could just barely fell he squeezed it. There was tears in his eyes.  I had no clue that he cared about me this much.. I thought everyone hated me. Obviously Thomas did. The other sides whispered and bantered back and forth in distress.  Patton sobbed. Roman began to freak out.  Janus whispered small inaudible things under his breath while clearly holding back tears. Remus for once had nothing to say, he just stared in silence as a couple tears streamed down his cheeks. And Logan.... Logan was now looking down at the ground.. he looked puzzled but he was also crying profusely... that's not something you see everyday.  I've never seen him this devastated..  I had just enough energy to pull him over to my level. I guess it's now or never. Literally. 
"L-Lo....If this is what you say it is then there's no doubt that I'm not going to be able to fight it... Logan I know this isn't the most ideal time and place for this but.. I've always had a huge crush on you.  And I'm ninety percent sure you don't know what I mean when I say that so it means that.. Logan I've always loved you. You were always the first thing on my mind when I woke up and the last thing on my mind before I went to sleep. I knew that you weren't exactly telling the truth when you said you can't feel anything. And this proves my theory.  You're clearly upset. That means your feeling something..  I used to think that if you had feelings that maybe you'd feel the same kind of love towards me that I have towards you. Maybe I was wrong... Maybe I was right.... But just know that whatever is going to happen to me when I'm gone.. I won't stop loving you. Wether I'll get to see you ever again someday is a mystery.... But I'm holding onto the tiniest sliver of hope I have left.. I hope that someday I'll be able to lay my eyes on you and fall in love all over again. Or maybe it never left."  I poured out to him as quickly as I could without jumbling on my words.   Logan looked shocked but also extremely disappointed. 
"V-Vee... Y-You should have spoke to me sooner about t-this...."  He quietly stammered out.  "..I thought I couldn't feel anything until I met you and I couldn't do anything but feel emotions that I couldn't possibly describe whenever I looked at you.  I'm.... I'm s-sorry. T-There's nothing I can do... I love you Virgil. I really really love you..."   It was relieving to hear that from Logan... but not so reliving that the one time he said it was when I was about to die.  Logan fell to his knees and he kissed my hand.  I felt the sharp pulsing pain for one last time... before everything went black.  The last thing I heard was a heartbreaking cry from Logan.... And I finally took my very last breath.

Logan's POV:
It's been a year. That is, since Virgil left us... and left me. Every day that passes is another day of grief and sorrow.  It's not the same. It'll never be the same. Virgil was the only one who took notice to me and how I was actually feeling inside. It hurts me so much... but then again I can never bring myself to take off Virgil's jacket. I remember the night he 'vanished'... Roman and Patton approached me with a sorrowful face plastered on each of theirs as they held out his jacket.. it was folded neatly... they left it in my bed and quickly left clearly seeing me in a bad state... I remember holding the jacket.. I put it on.... It was still warm.. it smelled like lavender... It was exactly how Virgil left it.... To this day I cannot take it off. My heart won't allow it. I won't allow it. Every night I went to the mind palace to visit Virgil's candle lit shrine. There was numerous pictures of him, letters, drawings, flowers, gifts, and little things to remember him by.... I've gone there every night since that tragic day.  I sit down and I speak to him. You'd think I was going crazy... But I can't help it.  It isn't like I get any response but.. for some reason I feel like he's there..  Those words ring in my ears as I sleep..
"But just know whatever happens to me when I'm gone.. I won't stop loving you."
...I still love you Virgil. I always will.