HOWLINGS AND SHADOWS (Thindrel Howzit Hawthorne)

🐾XXVIII. Death🐾

Thindrel Howzit Hawthorne

I slid my fingers inside Esmeralda's core and she moaned loudly. Emerald cover her ears and cry out loud.

I smirk. I'm a beast thirsty in sex and pleasure. I haven't forgotten that part of me. I push Esmeralda on the table at napahiga ito doon. Her eyes are full of lust, I compelled her, naturally it will look like she wants me. Well, every girls wants me. Nothing's new to that.

I spread her legs wide apart and unbuckle my jeans.

"No! Please, Thindrel. No!", iyak ni Esmeray habang nakaupo sa sahig. Kinakapos na siya ng hininga dahil sa tindi ng iyak niya while Emerald just cry quietly.

Napatingin ako sa kanya. I felt something I shouldn't. Unnecessary feelings.

Pilit akong inabot ni Esmeralda. Bumangon pa ito para magkahalikan kami. Esmeray's cries and sobbed filled the place. It echoed in every four corners.

Ngunit huli na ang lahat. Wala na talaga akong naramdaman pa, except lust that I feel towards her sister. Sa kanya? Wala na. She wasted my love. She wasted the trust I fully gave her. She wasted me. Sinayang niya lang ako. I should have given her my all, and I even want to give up my throne for her pero ngayon. Nalaman ko ang lahat. She doesn't deserve it all. She doesn't deserve me at all.

A trash like her doesn't fit for a King like me.

I didn't have sex with Esmeralda. I felt like it wasn't right. Esmeray is now crying silently habang nakatakip ang kamay sa kanyang bibig para hindi makagawa ng ingay. Tulala naman ang isang kapatid nila.

I pull Esmeralda's waist at inalis ang iilang hibla ng buhok na nakatabon sa kanyang leeg. I injected my fangs on the soft spot of her neck and emptied the blood from her viens.

Her skin slowly turn pale. I drank every last drop of her blood. Pabagsak ko naman itong binitiwan and her body fell from the table to the floor.

"Your turn", sabi ko kay Emerald.

She didn't move. Nakatitig lang siya sa akin. Ilang saglit ay naglabas siya ng baril at imbis na sa akin itutok ay sa kanyang noo iyon. She pull thr trigger and her head exploded.

"NOOOOOO!!!!!", paos na sigaw ni Esmeray sa kapatid. Mas lalong lumakas ang kanyang iyak.

Napatayo ako doon. I walk towards her. Halos nakadapa na siya sa sahig dahil sa tindi ng iyak.

I squated in front of her. Nag-angat naman siya ng tingin sa akin. In her eyes, I see sadness, longing, love and passion.

Ngunit kahit saan ko titingnan ang mga mata ay ni kahit kauting emosyon ay wala akong maramdaman.

I lift her face up to face me.

"Remember what I was about to say to you before you face your death, Esmeray", I said coldly. "I loved you but you wasted all of it. My trust, my love, my loyalty, and my everything. I'm willing to give it all up just for you", I stop when I saw her close her eyes and cry.

"I begged earlier that you'll probably change your mind and say your sorry that you only did it for your friends but not willing to kill me. Even if I can kill then right when we're still outside, I didn't, because I was hoping that you'll change your mind because you love me", I look directly on her eyes. Kita ko kung paano nag-iba ang kanyang mga mata. The eyes of the Esmeray I fell in love with.

"But you didn't. You kept on throwing stung words on my face. You can't blame me for all what happened. You turn me to this. You push me to my limits. You forced me to turn of my humanity so I won't feel anything when I kill everyone dear to you. And.....", I trailed off to give thrill. "....even you". I exhaled. "So don't cry now and beg for me because it's no used. I won't feel anything for you now. The Thindrel you know is already buried feep within this body. I'm his demon, speaking in his behalf. Just so you'd know. He loves you so much but what you've done to him is unforgivable. Vampires is the greatest weakness of all vampire and you took advantage of that", huminga ako ng malalim.

"Thindrel, I'm so sorry", sabi niya sa akin.

Umiling ako. "Save it. He can't hear it anymore", sabi ko kaya napaangat siya ng tingin sa akin.

"I know you're still there, Thindrel, please forgive me. Nabulag ako sa galit ko sayo. I- I was so mad that you left me at hindi ko matanggap na nagmahal ako ng isang katulad mo".

Kumunot ang noo ko. "You regret loving someone like me?", tinaasan ko siya ng kilay. "Mas nagsisisi ako, Ray. I regret too much that I go to this place and met you. I left my throne to look for love and all I found was this shit and trashy woman like you", sabi ko.

Mas lalo siyang naiyak. "I'm so sorry, Thindrel. Please, comeback! Comeback to me now!", she begged in front of me.

Umiling ako. "The Thindrel you know isn't here anymore. I told you already. He left you, long, long time ago, Ray. You don't deserve someone like him. You don't deserve the King", I said and slowly penetrated my fingers on her chest.

She gasp and close her eyes as she felt the pain. Nahawakan ko ang puso niya. She's still breathing but it's too slow now.

"I was never inside your heart as you are to mine", I whisper. "You don't deserve me, Ray. Goodbye, beloved", I said as my other side slowly awaken up at kasabay noon ay ang paghugot ko sa puso niya.

Tears escape her eyes as she lie on the floor, lifelessly.

Vampires aren't forgiving. Werewolves followed what their first decision is. A very bad combination of blood, isn't it?

Even on the last moment, I faked my humanity is turn off but it was me speaking to her when I felt her heart on my hand inside her chest.

I killed her. I killed my beloved. I killed the only woman I love. And you know what's worse? I didn't regret anything of it. I didn't regret taking her life with my own hands. My mind screams that she deserve what happened to her right now.