HOWLINGS AND SHADOWS (Thindrel Howzit Hawthorne)

🐾XVI. Give in🐾

Thindrel Howzit Hawthorne

Pagkatapos niyang magwala sa daan ay sumandal siya sa hood ng sasakyan ko. Nakatalikod siya sa akin kaya hindi ko kita ang kanyang mukha.

But when I heard her sobs. Kaagad akong naalarma. What's wrong with her?

Hinarap ko siya. I lift her face up at kita ko ang bawat pagpatak ng luha sa kanyang mga mata.

"Hey, what's wrong?", I asked.

She looks at me with sad eyes. "Family problem", sagot niya sa akin at iniwas ang tingin.

Kaagad ko namang binawi. "You can tell me. I can understand".

Napatingin siya sa akin. "How can you? You're life is perfect", aniya.

Napangiti ako. "I know but sometimes I feel like I'm a disappointment for ny parents. Irresponsible. So, tell me. I will understand", sabi ko.

She scoff. "My father always compare me to my older sisters. He always says that they're better than me. I'm just nothing but a burden to our family", sabi niya.

Huminga ako ng malalim. Hindi ko naman naramdaman iyan dahil ako lang naman ang nag-iisang anak ng mga magulang ko. But hearing her saying that words. It pained me. Nasasaktan din ako.

I feel like her pain os my pain too. Ang kung ano man ang naramdaman niya sa dibdib niya ay siya rin ang naramdaman ko. Is this the bond? She's my beloved. Well, maybe I can't change that so I might as well try to like her.

I fix some strands of her hair at the back of her ear. Napatingin siya sa akin.

"Don't listen to him. Everyone has their own uniqueness. Your dad just didn't see that", sabi ko sa kanya.

She nodded and breathe out. She close her eyes and slowly lean on me. Our lips touch.

Kakaiba ang naramdaman ko sa halikan namin. Kahit noong una. Ibang-iba sa halik na naranasan ko sa mga babaeng naikama ko.

I cup her face and kiss her more. I angel her face so I can have more access to her lips. I inserted my tongue inside her mouth and savor every corner of it. She moaned out loud.

Mas lalo akong ginaganahan doon. He moans sound like a trumpet from angels to me. Mas lalo ko lang pinagbutihan ang paghalik sa kanya habang ang mga kamay ko ay unti-unti nang sinira ang kanya g dress na suot.

She looked very pretty with that dress. Unfortunately, I ruined it. Bibilhan ko nalang siya ng bago.

Our kisses went deeper at habang tumatagal ay lalong lumalakas ang ungol niya.

Tuloyan ko ng nasira ang kanyang dress and ang tanging natira na lamang sa kanya ay ang kanyang straplna bra at lacy panties.

I groaned. It pained me. I scoop her butt and put her at the back of my car.
Inabot niya ako. I put the roof of the car back before resuming our kisses.

Kinapa niya ang button down shirt ko at hinubad ito sa akin. Hinayaan ko lang din siya.

I pull her bra down and it revealed her tits. Kaagad kong hinalikan ang mga iyon kaya napaigtad siya sa ginawa ko. I untied the laces of her panties and throw them anywhere inside my car.

She's fully naked in front of me now but I still have my jeans on. Kay hirap gumalaw sa loob ng sasakyan. Inabot niya ang zipper ng pantalon ko. Ako na mismo ang nag baba nito at pati ang boxers ko.

I kiss her lips again at alam kong wala na siya sa kanyang sarili ngayon. I lifted both of her legs. Ipinatong ko ang kaliwa sa sandalan ng driver seat at ang kanan naman sa passenger.

Her legs are now widely spread in front of me. I positioned myself in between her and immediately enter inside of her.

Kaagad siyang napasinghap at may luhang tumulo sa kanyang mga mata.

"Shit! You're a virgin!", mariin na sigaw ko.

I didn't know. I thought she's not since she's very liberated when I first saw her. Sa mga kaibigan niya pa lang ay nasa isip ko na iyon.

Umiyak siya at pumikit ng mariin. I hug her tight and didn't move.

"Shush! I'm sorry. I didn't know", sabi ko sabay pagtatahan sa kanya. I felt her nodded her head but she didn't say a word.

She give in. She give in to me.

I started to thrust inside of her. The car is now wobbling because of our movement. Mas lalong dinig na dinig ko ang ungol niya dahil nasa loob lang naman kami ng sasakyan ko.

That night. Niyakap ko lang siya. I make her wear my button down shirt habang pauwi kami. Dumiretso kami sa Lorenzittee Building at sa kwarto ko.

Dito na siya natulog.

"Why don't I just move in here?", she asked while we're having breakfast.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Hindi ko naman inaasahan iyon.

"Why?", I asked. Completely surprise.

She shrug. "I hate our house. I don't feel at home there", aniya. "So, can I move in?", she asked me.

Hindi kaagad ako nakasagot sa kanya. Of course, I want her to move out of their house if she doesn't feel at home there. But she can't move in here.

She'll know my lifestyle and she'll know what I am if that happens.

"You should think about it first. Asked your parents for permission", sabi kom

Kumunot ang noo niya. "They doesn't care about me".

"Your friends. They might help you", sabi ko.

Mas lalong kumunot ang noo niya. "You're my boyfriend now. Ikaw dapat ang una kong lapitan bago ang mga kaibigan ko".

Boyfriend?

Tinuro ko ang sarili ko. "I'm your boyfriend?", I asked her.

She nodded but her forehead is still creased. "Yeah. Why? After what happened last night hindi ba dapat lang na boyfriend kita?", she asked.

Umiling ako sa kanya. Hindi makapaniwala. "We've dated just last night. Don't be such in a rush", sabi ko sa kanya.

Her mouth flew open. "W-What did you say? And what about last night? We make love, Thindrel", she said.

Nagulat ako sa sinabi niyang make love pero mas nagulat ako sa pagsabi niya ng pangalan ko.

"I'm sure you're not ready to step up in that stage. Let's be friends for now, Esmeray. What happened last night, forget about it. Consider it as you're drunk kaya nagawa natin iyon, okay?", I look her in the eyes as I told her that.

I compelled her. Dahan-dahan siyang tumango sa akin kahit na kita ko ang  lungkot na dumaan sa mga mata niya.

"Good. Go home now", sabi ko at hinayaan siyang lumabas ng apartment ko.

Pagkasara ng pinto ng makalabas siya at naiwan ang tingin ko doon.

This is very difficult. How will I tell her I'm a vampire without scaring her or something.

It's not that I love her already. Isang gabi lang iyon. I can have girls when I want to. She's not an exception.

Ang problema ko lang dito ay kung paano sabihin sa kanya ang tungkol sa akin. If she won't accept it then I'll leave her and find another. If she'll accept me, then that's good.

Mabilis akong tumayo at kinuha ang susi para mabuksan ang fridge ko na may lamang blood bags. Reserba ko lang iyon kung hindi ako makahanap ng maiinoman.

Mabilis kong inubos ang laman noon at tinapon sa separate trash can. Itinulog ko nalang ang pag-iisip kung paano sasabihin.

Siguro. May pagkakataon na sasabihin ko iyon sa kanya. Pero hindi pa ngayon. I didn't know her that much. I know she feel something for me pero hindi iyon magiging basehan ko para magtiwala sa kanya.