Only for you (GxG)

Chapter 10.

Megan's POV
I laid in Normani's bed, resting my head on her chest. I played with her hands. Like I was a kid. The only person that knew anything was Caresha. She comforts me. Because she's seen me at my worst. And she's in no position to judge.

"It was sophomore year. My mom been left. Money was getting low. Being in Pittsburg still wasn't familiar to me. My dad started drinking real bad cause he was depressed. And here I was some 15 year old kid trying to rap. But I had to push it to the side for my family. I was with Caresha at the time. She knew some older guys that could help be out with my money problem. Of course you have to work for money but I told them I wasn't selling no drugs. Caresha got caught up with drugs too often. I made money off of , my body," I confessed. My first tear rolled down my face. I felt her wipe it away. She held me closer than she ever did before.

"It was supposed to be a few times just to get the money up cause we needed it. Eviction notices started coming in heavy. So the job continued. I felt dirty. Some women do this and they feel fine you know just a job, but I couldn't separate myself from the job. The only person to love me was Caresha. You came in my life and you're more than what I deserve," the tears flew down my face like streams

I was so embarrassed. Every time whatever guy finished I felt like a piece of myself was taken away. All these soul ties in my body of angry, disgusting men. And I have to live with it.

"I was with Caresha this week because I don't think I do deserve you. Trying to get you out of my mind is hard and It's like the more time I spent with you, cuddled with you, holding you, just being in your presence I realized how invested you and I both were becoming. And it scares me to get too close. Although sometimes Caresha can be an asshole, I do trust her with my whole being. She's the only person I can actually express my concerns to. Why I was too scared to make a move on you. To confess any type of feelings that I have towards or for you. It all comes down to me being some used up whore," all I could give her was the truth.

"Megan , that's not who you are. You had to do something to get you to a better position in life," she sympathized.

But before she could continue, I wasn't done.
"I lied to you," I sighed "about my mom,"

"You can talk to me," she rubbed my back. As if my lying was forgivable.

"She has a family. She's happy. A husband and she had a little daughter. A whole new life, of what my life used to be," I laughed softly "oh god," I closed my eyes. Hot tears began to bubble behind my eyelids.

"Why didn't you just tell me?" Her curiosity lingered

"It's embarrassing, and I've never told anyone before, shit not even Caresha,"

She nodded. Still holding me just as close. I realized that I better get my shit together. Because Normani is good for me. I need her.

"She came up here. During my sophomore year, before the prostitution. She told me about her new life and how happy she was and I hated her because of it, she was pregnant and invited me to the baby shower down in Texas. I didn't go. I was too upset with her. I stopped contacting her. We haven't talked for all this time because of me," the sobs were coming

"Megan, Megan baby please. Don't blame yourself," her hand caressed my cheek. She kissed my forehead. I kept my head on her chest.

"What am I supposed to do?" I asked her, looking up at her

"What do you want to do?" She looked down into my eyes

"I want to see her... but will you come with me?" I asked her

Her smile was infectious. She nodded.

"Will you help me find my mom after?"

I nodded, "yes," I answered

"I know you've been through a lot, but I don't see you as any less. I think you're strong, I think you're a huge baby, I think that you're smart and you're funny, and that you're confident," she touched my face with her hand.

"You are someone I want to love," she finished. Her eyes were beyond hopeful.

She moved her head down and our lips locked. Her lips were so soft, so warm. My hand slipped to her back. I brought her in for more. I felt my whole body overflowing with butterflies. Electricity ran through my spine. I've never felt this way before. Her tongue slipped past my lips. Wrestling with mine. Closing it with one last kiss on her lips.

"Normani Kordei , you sure know how to kiss," I spoke softly against her lips

"Well Megan Pete , I'll have you know that I've never kissed anyone before," my eyes widen, the way she kissed me was proof she was a professional

"Really?" I asked

"I've never dated anyone before, kissed, touched you know? none of that. I've been focused of school and academics too much. My gma depends on me though so I have to focus on what's important, academics and work," she shrugged

"You know it's also important that you work and focus on yourself, let yourself breathe," I started rubbing her thigh.

"I don't know," she exhaled "I start my pre-college program soon, I'll be really busy,"

"Too busy for me," I understood

"I've just never had this type of .. distraction? Before,"

I won't lie, being seen as her distraction hurt.
"Distraction?" I questioned

"You're the only thing I think of Megan. I can't even study without you just in my mind, this is my first situation like this,"

I smiled.
"Stop," she touched my face again, "it's irritating, and I get worried every second I'm not with you,"

"What if we make this work? I can help you study, and when you're at your program I can grind and do my rap shit," I suggested , with a big smile on my face

"We can try," she mumbled

I kissed her plump lips. A small smooch.

"You really never had anybody else? In an intimate type of way?" I asked

"Yeah," the shyness in her voice resurfaced

"Well I'm honored to be the first person that you let love you,"

We just looked at each other for a long time. I was in a place that I never wanted to escape from. I've showed her all my wounds. Every secret of mine was now hers.

"You're asleep?" She whispered

"No," I whispered back

Her lips snuck a kiss from my lips.

"Goodnight Megan Pete,"

"Goodnight Normani Kordei."

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