Only for you (GxG)

Chapter 19.

Normani's POV

"I don't want to argue with you I'm just saying Caresha is way too comfortable stepping to me," i laid down looking at the ceiling.

"I understand that, I get that okay? I'm working on it,"

"Megan what is that even supposed to mean?"

"I don't know yet, I'm thinking I just want you to be comfortable,"

Caresha's been in my head since earlier. I can't tell Megan that she can't be friends with her but I don't trust Caresha around Megan. Megan decided to stay home tonight with her dad so we were talking over FaceTime.

"Nothing about you being so close to your first love makes me comfortable,"

"I want you Mani,"

"Yeah and she wants you,"

"So?"

"You'll probably want her too she can give you more than what I can," I sighed.

"What are you talking about?" Her voice was low.

"Nothing," I mumbled. 

"Normani talk to me, what do you mean?" Her voice grew soft. "Let me see you,"

I exhaled , adjusting the camera so she could see my face. She was all up in the camera anyways, she's so cute.

I couldn't help but smile at the screen.

"You know you're pretty right?" She asked me making me laugh.

"Okay play girl ," I playfully rolled my eyes soon after.

"Baby tell me what you meant by what you said," she set her camera up as she leaned her head on her arms.

"Her sex appeal, her experience I know that's what you want sometimes and I don't have that. What if I can't sati-"

"Normani," she cut me off

"Yes?" I frowned

"I don't want sex from you," she spoke slowly, "I like you Mani. Your presence, your touch, your voice. I like when you hum when you hold my hand especially when you're nervous. I like that you're a hard worker, you have passion, you have a dream, a gift. I told you before and I'll tell you again, I want to wait before I do anything more with you that we both wouldn't be ready for. You have no reason to be threatened by her, all ties will be cut."

I'm starting to get emotional with her.
"Megan-"

""I'm coming over right now, I just wanna hold you,"

"Okay," I looked into the screen to see her moving around. Before I knew it she was in the car.

"Call me when you're here," I spoke, admiring her face. "I don't want to distract you,"

"I have my key, you want anything before I get over there?"

"Mm mm,"

"Okay then, I'll be there,"

She hung up the phone. I huffed in relief.

I know everything's just been a lot. I know we never got a chance to truly talk about it. But I want to be with her too, of course I've made that clear but I want to tell her. When my gma wakes up I want her to understand that I can't lose her, but I can't lose Megan either and I won't chose an ultimatum. I've made up my mind.

I heard the door open, Megan came up into my room.

"Hi baby," I got up to hug her.

"You smell so good," I spoke into her neck.