Kulayan Natin (Munimuni Series #3)

Chapter 20

Chapter 20

The worst part is an unexplainable pain. I'm hurting, my heart is crashing into pieces, my heart is aching and I don't even know the reason why. I just suddenly felt the urge to cry while I'm all alone here in my room.

The dark room, I can only see the lampshade. This is what I want, a silent place. But suddenly… I feel like I'm crying, I suddenly feel the pain for some unknown reason.

That's when I realized that this is me. When I thought that I'm strong, that I'm brave, that I'm competitive and nothing can win over me… but I was wrong.

The pain won over myself. I let the pain eat my whole body, that's why I'm being like this.

How many times do I have to tell all of them that I really didn't kill someone? But then, this is our reality. Where they're blaming you for something that you really didn't do. At the end of the day, the people who have no power will lose.

I have power, my Dad can easily pay all of the police, all of the judges and prosecutors para palayain na nila ako sa gulong ito. Because my Dad has a lot of connections, he can do it in just one snap.

But even if I have a chance to do it, I don't want to. As I've said before, paying them means proving that I'm guilty, well in fact, I'm really not.

That's why I really want to be a prosecutor in the first place. I want to help people, not only because that's my work, because that is also my passion— helping people who are seeking help and justice.

I don't want to be someone who will be dumb at our justice system. If I become a prosecutor someday, I'll make sure to investigate well and not to blame other people who are really innocent.

But who am I kidding? This is our reality, where our justice system is so fuck up. When the criminals are just walking around the world, while the innocent man is blamed for the things that he didn't do.

That's not a joke. It's really happening in our reality. Not just once, not just twice, but more than once. I cannot even count how many of the people were blamed, well in fact, they really didn't do anything.

I want people to face it. Fight for their rights, fight for themselves. We shouldn't be afraid of facing it if we're really innocent. We shouldn't be afraid of facing the court, and facing the law. Because that is how humans should be.

"Nandito lang kami para sa'yo, Philline…" sabi sa'kin nila Iona nang isang beses na magkita kami.

At least kahit paano, medyo napapagaan nila ang loob ko. Nandito sila sa bahay namin dahil inaya ko sila na mag sleep over rito. Miss ko na din sila, hindi na kasi kami madalas nagkakasama simula noong napunta ako sa law school. Minsan na lang din ako dumalaw kila Mommy.

"Huwag mong iisipin na lagi kang mag-isa, okay? Hindi ka mag-isa. Nandito lang kami sa tabi mo…" si Herbert.

Kahit na ilang beses na nilang sinasabi sa'kin iyon, ayoko namang masanay na lagi silang nandito para sa'kin. I don't want to disappoint myself. I don't want to depend on other people. Ayokong masanay dahil alam kong hindi lahat ng bagay ay permanente.

"Lagi kaming naka suporta sa'yo. We always got your back!"

Napangiti na lang ako sa kanila at lubos silang pinasalamatan. Siguro kung wala sila rito, baka nagmukmok na naman ako sa kwarto ko nang mag-isa at walang sinasagot na kahit isang tawag galing sa kanila. Even Veslei.

"What do you want, Philline? I'll buy it for you." si Veslei na nasa likod ko lang, for sure, ginagawa niya ito para mapagaan ang loob ko.

I sighed. "Ikaw lang, sapat na sa'kin iyon, Veslei."