The Pretty List ~ A Lams AU

✨29 ~ Say No✨

is it wrong it pisses me off that its on 29? anyway

Alex's POV

It was about 11 at night, and it was raining lightly. I hadn't even noticed till I went to shut the window because I was cold.

I miss John. Like a lot.

I have probably mentioned this about 3 times already, but I hate, hate being alone. Maybe I'm just clingy. Who knows.

But I miss him. I wish he was here. He'd make it fun, he makes everything fun. I bet he'd hug me right now. I want cuddles. I want him back.

Well, I at least hope John's having fun, so my suffering isn't for nothing.

I sound dramatic.

Maybe I should go back to being dramatic?

Sorry for breaking the fourth wall, but remember how serious and dramatic I was in the first chapter? It was great, so may paragraphs. (ikr)

I sigh and let my book fall onto my chest. Still reading, still a nerd. Fucking deal with it, books from over 2000 years ago, hell yeah.

I couldn't sleep. To be very honest, I didn't even try. Maybe I could pull an all-nighter. That might be fun. But it wouldn't really. It's only fun when he's here.

It was so quiet though, the house was just so quiet without him. No noises, nothing except my own breathing and the small tapping of the rain on the windows.

Which is why I jump when I hear a knock at the door downstairs.

Plenty of people might hang out at our house, but its 11 at night, and raining, and I bet most people would have gone home now. Plus no one ever knocks or anything.

I put down my book, and stand up off the bed, frowning. I walk quickly down the stairs. There was no more knocks, nothing else. Maybe I imagined it.

I get to the door and hesitate, brushing my shirts down and taking a deep breath, preparing myself for the human interaction.

And then I open the door, and my frown deepens.

"Eliza?"

And there she was, standing there, hugging her bare arms, her wet hair plastered to her neck, sniffing, and looking down though I could see her makeup run down her face as if crying.

She looks up, almost stricken and surprised. "O-oh," She whispers, wiping her face with the back of her hand, "Alex, I-I'm sorry, I just... I didn't know where else to go and I, I didn't, I just-"

"Hey, hey wait its ok, come in, don't stand in the rain," I say softly, and gently lead her inside and shut the door behiend her.

"Thank you, I... I'm sorry you have to see me like this, I'm so sorry to bother you, I didn't, I-" She seems to fumble for the words, and stutters slightly. I can tell how distressed she is.

"Hey its ok, don't apologise." I smile gently at her, and she takes a deep breath.

"Is John here?"

"No, why? Do you want me to call him?"

"No, no its fine. I just..." She trails off, looking away. I see her bite her lip.

"Here, come sit down." I whisper, and I guide her into the room and I pull out a chair. She sits in it carefully.

"I didn't know where else to go, I mean-"

"It's ok, look at me, it's ok. Why don't you tell me what's wrong?" I say, as gently as possible though to put as little pressure on her as possible.

She takes a deep breath, and rubs her face again, and starts, "Well, I mean, my boyfriend broke up with me," She laughs half-heartedly, "I'm sorry that sounds so pathetic. I just mean, he's violent Alex. It was violent, he fully kicked me out, and I don't know what to do and I'm scared, I don't have anywhere to go, Peggy's living with her girlfriend, Angelica doesn't have room, and I don't know I... I'm scared, like genuinely, I-"

"Do you think you'd be scared for your life?" I interrupt, and she looks at me with wide, innocent eyes, and nods.

"Maybe..." She shudders, and I smile sympathetically.

"Don't worry, I wont let anything happen to you, you can stay as long as you'd like."

"I mean I don't want to intrude-"

"Its fine, John wont be back until tomorrow and I'm sure we can sort something out by then."

"Oh, thank you! Thank you so much, really..."

"Of course, only human decency. You can stay in one of the spare rooms, look I'll show you."

I show her, making small conversation while we go, and she giggles and sniff gently. I assume she'd stopped crying by now.

time skip bc im awkard im sorry help me its so hard to write

"Come to me if you need anything. I'll let you be alone now." I smile at her again, and linger only a second.

Eliza bites down gently on her lip, and then before I can blink she's grabbed onto me and twisted me, and pushes me down onto the bed.

My breath catches in my throat and I look up at her with wide eyes.

What the fuck is happening?

"Stay...?" She whispers slowly, and I, what?! She cannot seriously be suggesting this.

I look away, avoiding her eyes, "H-hey-" I start, but I'm cut off.

"Hey," She murmurs, leaning in, and smiling devishly.

Oh no no no, she cant do that, she can't steal my words to try and fucking seduce me or some shit, that's not how it... Or is it?

I gulp, and look away.

Everything is screaming at me to say no, and everything is crying out at me to say no, I know I need to say no, I know I should say no.

I know I'm meant to say no.

I know people expect me to say no.

But suddenly her mouth is on mine

and I don't

say

no.