The Pretty List ~ A Lams AU

✨31 ~ The Last Fucking Time Please✨

hell yeah more fan art!! *dances* i'm so happy that we get fan art honestly. tysm to xMusical_Nerdx bc their books are awesome and they're hella nice

I wish I could say that was the last time.

I said that last time.

It became a past time. (istg i never ref the musical so here)

And every time it killed me. It killed me but I kept doing it. Like a fucking addiction, and I wanted to stop but I didn't at the same time.

And I didn't. And it hurt because every time I would come home and John would smile at me, and ask me where I'd been and if I'd had fun. And I had to lie to him over, and over again and the more I lie, the worse it's going to be when the truth comes out.

"Hey Lex." I start and look up at John. I hadn't realised he had walked into the room, I was so wrapped up in my own thoughts. "Are you ok?"

"Oh yeah, I'm fine." I say, though my voice wobbles slightly. I curse in my head.

"You sure? You have that look on your face again." He says and he bends down and kisses me softly on the cheek.

"Yeah, John, I'm ok. Or I will be."

He smiles gently, and pulls at my arm. "C'mon lets go watch a film."

"John-" I whine, and he laughs.

"C'mon, please! You know you want to."

I laugh and stand up, as he drags me away from my desk.

"I still get to pick the film though."

time skip brought to u by the fact im writing this the day the book goes out (but after)

"Why do you always cry at rom coms?" I sigh and John tries very hard to pretend he's not crying. He presses his lips together and sniffs hard, squinting, and glares at me.

"I'm not." He mumbles, though a tear falls down his cheek.

"Yeah you are. I thought you said you weren't a romantic."

"I'm really not..."

"There's about 3 pixels on the screen and you're crying!"

"I'm not crying!" He protests, hitting me in the face with a pillow.

"We're not even near the romantic bit, it's the middle!"

He presses his hand over my mouth and I giggle.

another time skip brought to you by coke (maybe the drug, maybe not)

By the end of the film John had fallen asleep. On my shoulder. He looked peaceful while sleeping like this, and I didn't have the heart to wake him up. Besides, it'd be easier to slip out while he's asleep.

I pull gently out of his grip and I kiss him on the cheek. "I'll be back soon Jackie, last time, I promise."

I take a deep breath and throw on a jacket, before glancing back and sighing and walking out the front door.

Time to do what I should have done like 2 months ago.

I'm a bit of a dumb bitch, aren't I?

time skip brought u by my partner :)

"Oh. Alex, I wasnt expecting you right now, but I can always change a few things..." Eliza whispers, her words trailing off as she leans in, and fuck me, I'm tempted.