Always and Forever (grayson dolan fanfiction)

Chapter 15: Falling into depression

*1 month later*
After the incident of how i have a dead baby in me, i fell into depression. I honestly dont know what to do. As i layed in my bed, flashbacks came in my head. Memories of what happened a month ago.

*flashback*
"Shelly, im so sorry to tell you but your baby died instantly from a minor fracture in its head. Im very sorry for your loss" Nurse Brown said. Grayson just sat there crying. I needed some time alone so i can think. As i was sitting on the hospital bed alone, i started to cry in my pillow as i held my stomach. But atleast i know my baby girl is in heaven with daddy. I know that shes safe in her grandfathers hands. I know that shes watching over her mommy(me) and her daddy(grayson). I crued myself to sleep hoping no one would see me. I just wanted to die.
*end of flashback*

As i kept thinking about my dead baby in my stomach, i went into the bathroom and sat on my floor. I just sat there staring at the wall and holding my stomach. My phone went off which interrupted my train of thought.

Gray: hey baby, r u ok
Me: hi...not really. Im falling into a depression again. Idk what to do. Im scared i might do it again
Gray: baby, plz dont. I love u so much that it hurts me to even see u hurt. plz dont do anything to hurt u. I dont want to wake up and stand over my fiances grave. Baby, just listen to me. Im coming over there right now. Ily
Me: ok...ily2

After about 5 minutes, i heard a knock at the door. I was home alone. I opened the door and saw grayson holding roses. My favorite flower. A tear fell down my cheek and grayson wrapped his muscular arms around my shoulders and i just stood there crying in his chest. We walked up to my room and i layed on my bed with grayson on it too. I layed on his chest as he rubbed my stomach. I liked the feeling of being safe and prtected by someone who cares. He started stroking my hair which he knew i loved. I smiled into his chest while he kissed my head. We pulled the covers over eachother while he wrapped his arns around my waist to pull me closer. We both fell asleep, and i had the worst dream ever. I was standing over a grave that said Emma Dolan 2015-2015 in memory of a loving daughter. I woke up and ran to the bathroom and cried my eyes out. Grayson didnt wake up which was good. I found some razors and did what i had to do. I sliced only 1 mark for both wrists. I whimpered in pain, but quietly. I cleaned up the bloody sink and wrapped up my wrists and went back to sleep in graysons arns. Even though grayson was here, i was still depressed. Love cant make me stop this. Nothing will.