Always and Forever (grayson dolan fanfiction)

Chapter 44: I have no choice

I went to the bathroom, just sitting in the bathtub with my knees to my chest. I just sat in the warm water with my clothes on. I only had shorts and a tank top. My eyes were red from crying. "Im gonna kill that bitch" i whispered. "Emma, i need you right now with me" i said. I grabbed the razor and just stared at it. I looked down at my wrists and remembered what my mom told me "i love you so much from here to the moon". I smiled at the memory. I placed the blade on my wrist, but i didnt cut. It just stayed there. *knock*knock* They was a knock at my bathroom door which startled me. "What" i said wiping my tears. "Shell, its us" mel said. "I dont want to see you guys right now" i said. "Well, do you wanna see me" gray asked. I unlcoked the door and he came in. So did melanie and ethan. Ethan dat on the toilet, melanie sat on the bathtub ledge, and grayson was crouching down. "I cant take it anymore...i have no choice but to do what had been haunting me" i said crying. Then i pulled out a razor. "Shelly, please dont do this to yourself!" Grayson said. "Shelly, put the razor down and lets talk about it" ethan said walking foward. "NO! I hate my life, eversince you guys entered it, i was happy than never before. Until Tiffany revealed my secret, now its like my whole world collapsed" i said crying. "Shell, please. We need you with us. We need you alive" melanie said. Then i put the razor against my throat. "SHELLY NO!" grayson yelled. He pulled the razor out of ny hand just in time. "NO! NO! PLEASE! I NEED TO!" i cried, begging them. Ethan picked me up and put me on the floor. Melanie grabbed a towel and wrapped it around me. "Shhh, its gonna be ok" grayson whispered. I cried into his shoulder. "Guys can you give us a minute" mel said. Gray and eth left. They put their ear to the door and listened to our conversation. "Do you wanna talk about it" mel asked. "I cant handle life anymore. I want to be with mom, dad, emma, and emily. I just need the pain to make me feel better" i said. "Maybe pain isnt the right answer" mel said. "What do you mean" i said. "Theres therapy" she said. "Lets make a deal. If i go to therapy for two months, and if i feel better, can i have your purple converses" i said. "Deal" she said shaking my hand. "Now lets get you dried up. Later, we're gonna do revenge on Tiffany" mel said. "Ok" i said. Just then, we heard grayson and ethan moving. "Shut up dude im trying to listen" gray said. Me and Melanie looked at eachother and opened the door quickly. Ethan and grayson fell on the floor. "You guys are stupid" i sad giggling. "So how are you feeling" gray said. "Im going to therapy for two months" i said. "Good" ethan said. "Now, we have alot of time to get the revenge plan started, so lets start!" Melanie said.