Always and Forever (grayson dolan fanfiction)

Chapter 18: Cremation

*2 days later*
After the C-Section, i told Dr Harper how i wanted to cremate Emma so i can keep her forever. "Hey...um...Dr H, is it ok if you can cremate Emma for me" i asked. "Of course Shelly. Anything you want, im glad to help" he said leaving to cremate Emma. I just layed there staring at the ceiling. 2 hours came by and i saw Dr Harper holding a vase. I knew exactly what was in there. It was my baby girl, Emma. On the front, it said:

Loving Memory Of Our Daughter
Emma Elizabeth Dolan
RIP: 2015-2015

I held it in my hand as i cried. I started talking to her. "Hey Emma. Im not sure what to say but I'll just say it. Um...im your mother. And Grayson is your father. You died while a girl stomped on my stomach and i regret it. I fell into a depression. After i found out i was pregnant with you, everything seemed to change. I became more happy, you know. And now without you, it feels like ny world ended. Your daddy and me are gonna try to have another baby but we'll have to wait for a year. I know its stupid. I mean look at me, im crying. But at least im crying with you. God, i miss you already. Now that your gona, uh, your aunt and uncle are trying to cheer me up. But the onky thing that will cheer me up is just looking at your vase. It brightens up my world now. But no matter what, not in a million years, you will always be my daughter. I just want to know what it feels like to hold you for the first time. I remember when i told gray that i was pregnant with you. He was so happy to be a dad and i was so happy to be a mom. So um...thanks for the talk Emma. I uh-i-i-i really love you. No natter what. And i dont care what people think of you" i cried while talking to the vase of ashes. I kissed the vase and just held it in my arms. As i looked up, i saw Gray, Mel, and Eth standing at the doorway. "Did you...uh...guys listen to my conversation with Emma" i asked wiping my tears. "Yea, uh...we did" Mel said. They all walked to me and hugged me. I didnt want to let the vase go. "Shelly, um...are you hungry" Dr Harper asked. "Um..yes, i actually am" i said. 15 minutes went by and i saw Dr Harper holding a tray of steak, corn, and mashed potatoes. "Here you are Shelly, im just gonna take this awa-" "NO!!" I cut Dr Harper off from taking my vase. "I mean, uh, no thank" i said quietly. "Shelly, its fine. Im just going to put it on the table" he said. "ok" i said. I finished eating and i fell asleep with gray holding my hand and Mel and Eth sleeping on the couch in the room. I woke up screaming and everyone shot up and ran to me. "Oh my god baby what happened!!!" Gray asked worried. "I-i-i had a b-b-bad dream of when i lost Emma all over a-again" i said trying to catch my breath from crying. "Shell, come down. Just breathe" Ethan said calming me down. "Ok" i said breathing slowly. After that incident, nothing really happened. I kept talking to Emma, and i kept eating little by little. Overall, everything has been perfect. My family is visiting me everyday and im leaving the hospital tomorrow. Maybe things will be different when I get home.