The Star's Solace (T)

Chapter 07

Chapter 7

It is still unclear to me what we are. I mean, I should consider it dating already, right? But... he didn't make things clear between us. Nasanay na ako makakita sa US ng ganito, pero may label sila. Kahit papalit-palit ng boyfriend may label ang mga tao doon. Kami? Hindi ko alam.

I don't want to be sentimental on this one. This is my first time, and I don't know what to do. I wanted to ask him, but I am too afraid that it is just nothing. I guess... I am afraid of rejection after all.

He is sweet to me. He takes care of me. We always eat lunch together. Study together. I get to know his friends already. Some students already assuming things between us. Nakakagulat lang kasi hindi na sila nagulat pa. I mean, I feel like they already expected this to happen. Hindi ko tuloy maiwasang tanungin sa sarili... is he a playboy? Is he playing with me?

I bit my lower lip.

I looked at him while he is eating silently. I lost my appetite already because of what's bugging on my mind. His brows furrowed and then his eyes went to mine.

"What's wrong?" he asked. I blinked twice and suddenly gets panicked.

"N-nothing." I chuckled.

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah." I mumbled.

"Are you not feeling well? Just tell me. Let's go to cli—"

"No! No... no..." I shook my head. I held his arm, preventing him to stood up. Even this... he is so caring to me that it gets me confused.

"I just... lost my appetite." I said honestly.

"Why?"

"Ayoko ng ulam." This time, I lied. I heard him sigh.

"Anong gusto mong kainin kung gano'n? Bibilhan kita."

I bit my lower lip.

"Wala."

I like him. That's one thing for sure. As the days passes by, and he is being like this... I can't help myself but to fall deeper. Who wouldn't be, right? I mean, he treated me differently from other girls. Ako lang yata ang kinakausap niya eh. Ako lang nilalapitan niya. Sa akin lang siya nakikisabay kumain. Sa akin lang siya mabait. Who wouldn't fall for those actions?

I told Kate about my feelings, and it seems like she is not sure as well.

"Should I ask him?" I was looking for her eyes searching for an answer. I found it but once again she turned it away from me. My brows furrowed.

"What kind of reaction is that? H-hindi ba? H-h'wag na lang?" alangan ko ring sabi.

She bit her lower lip before she spoke.