The Star's Solace (T)

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

My heart hurt to the point I felt nothing but disappointment. Janna is right. Everything Janna have said were all right. Na... kaya... na kaya lang ako nilalapitan ni Khiel dahil kamukhang-kamukha ko ang namatay niyang girlfriend.

Kung ganoon, gago siya! He's a jerk! An asshole!

I will never be like her! Buhay ako siya patay na! I don't care anymore if I may sound rude but heck! Don't compare her to me. I am alive! I am still breathing!

Kung noon naiintindihan ko pa siya at naaawa, ngayon hindi na at hinding-hindi ko na siya iintindihin pa. Pagod na akong umasa. Pagod na akong umintindi. Pagod na akong maging mabait. I will now completely avoid him. How dare he compare me with his late girlfriend huh? Now... all my insecurities are building up again.

Ang hirap lumaban at magmahal lalo na kung hindi naman ikaw ang laman ng puso pero mas mahirap labanan ang pusong nagmahal ng sobra sa iba. Ang hirap labanan ng nararamdaman ng tao... pero ngayon may napagtanto ako... kung hindi na, tama na. Hindi ko na ipipilit pa ang sarili sa kanya. Hindi na aasa.

I wiped my tears while I was inside the car. Uhhh please stop crying Lianna! Heck he is not worth your tears!

Now it all makes sense... ngayon naiintindihan ko na bakit ang dali-dali niya lang akong nilapitan. Now it all makes sense why he's suddenly being nice to me! He's such a jerk!

"Anika!" I cried while hugging her.

"I hate him! I hate him so much!"

Anika hugged me back. I know she's confused why I am acting like this so suddenly. Pagkauwing-pagkauwi ko, hinanap ko si Anika para yakapin siya. I am still on my uniform.

"How dare he?! How dare he compare me to her late girlfriend! Ayoko na!" I ranted. I am lost for words except 'ayoko na' at 'ang gago niya.'

"Hush now, Lianna. Just... avoid him."

"I will!" I abruptly replied.

"Ang ibig kong sabihin hayaan mo muna na uhh maghilom siya? Kasi 'di ba... sabi mo kamamatay lang ng girlfriend niya last year kaya baka—"

"Hindi na! I will completely avoid him! I will never talk to him ever! Never!"

"Lianna... just understand—"

"No! You don't understand me, Anika! I am hurt! Pinamukha niya sa akin na hindi ako papantay sa girlfriend niya! Simula umpisa pa lang wala na pala siyang balak na saluhin ako kasi si Wendy pa rin ang gusto niya! Eh wala na nga siya!" Anika lips parted.

"Tama si Janna! Ginagamit lang ako ni Khiel! Wala siyang kwenta!"

"No..." Anika shook his head.

"Try to talk to him agai—"