Gusar

Last letter for my muse.

I once said that I need three years then let see how it will be. More than 2 years had pass I still stay in stagnant. It has been multiple of times where I said "this is it, it's time to move on." But I end up stay for the same person with the same reason.

Dear my muse, my first and only official fans. I love to talk to you, I love how we was always aligned with our thoughts and views. How ambitious we are and how we slowly find our way out looking for the better pathway. I've experienced a long 7 years with ups and downs but you were there for all the stories and worries. You were there with your kind words and supports. Your random proud post and sharing. Your small gestures which I always waiting for. You know my name and my story. Having you close since about 9 years ago. Change me a lot. You push me out from my circle and comfort zone, you always believe in me when I wasn't to my self. You cherish me in my milestones. You always said you proud of me. So do I to you. You were there when my other friends weren't. I never asked for you but you keep come into.

I keep the book you gave me as the most precious treasure. The books you suggested and we read together. The book we seludup from back door by my proud "cable". The music we listen to, the band I made you terhasut. There's a lot more story that if I decide to write for sure it will be too long to be write down. I will never have enough pens and papers

We are now two grown adult. It's time to let go. For me letting you ago and... It was once in a lifetime chance to have someone who was there listen to your story and calm you down just by being there. It's not easy to find someone who can understand without you need to explain. I don't see romance in relationship but how you can growing up by being together. And you are the one that I had. Thanks. I guess it's time to really letting you go. And fight my own battle. Wherever you go, whoever you become, you are once and forever my muse. So proud. Take care and all the best. We are not on the same orbit. We will never collide. Thanks for the memories, you means a lot.

Sincerely, someone who name you as her muse.