I hate you I love you-EdSer oneshots

Like I'm gonna lose you Part 1

Disclaimer: Set after that horrible ending of episode 25. Serkan deserved this.

“Thank you, Eda Yildiz” he said with a bitter smile on his face and tears in his eyes. He past by her and left the room, cursing the day he met Eda.
He wasn’t a fool, he could see on her face that she is hiding something from him, and he was sure it had to do with her grandmother. He could see the pained expression on her beautiful face, and he could recognize it anywhere. It was the same expression he had when he broke up with her. He was begging her silently to not follow him there, to not break their hearts the way he did.
But after hearing her say these words, even through they were fake( he was sure) it still hurt him to use that against him. He lived through weeks and months of hell, torturing and punishing himself for his father wrong doings, and when he finally had a little bit of hope that Eda forgave him, that they could finally be happy, her grandmother returns and everything went to shit.
He wondered if he is ever going to be happy, wondered what did he do to God to punish him his whole life, wondered if Eda ever loved him…
He wondered about a lot of things while he drove towards his home, his empty flowerless home…
He greeted Sirius at the door, while his boy whined and cried.
“I know baby. I miss her too” Serkan petted him for a while and left to his office, knowing another sleepless night is coming.
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Eda hated herself. She hated herself for doing that to Serkan, her first and last love, she hated her grandmother, for making her sat all those horrible things, she hated that prince whatshisname, that arrogant prick…She used to be a person full of love and purity, happiness and naivety, but know, hatred entered her heart, tainting her, turning her into a bitter person.
She would never forgive herself for what she done to Serkan. He didn’t deserve any of it. He was always a kind person, despite his robotic tendencies, he just needed a person who loved him just the way he is. And Eda loved him. She loved him so much, that even when they were in the same room, she still missed him. It pained her to know that she never told him that. She never told him she loved him. But that is gonna change.
She soon left smug looking Semiha and a man she so much wanted to kick in his nuts, and left to her house. She entered quietly and went to her room.
She laid on her bed for what seems like hours, staring at the bracelet Serkan gave her.
Then, she looked at the guitar pick he so lovingly gave her.
Then, she looked at the pen he gave her on the cold autumn night.
She opened the closet door and looked at blue and red dress he gave her.
And for the last, she looked at the terrarium he gave her when he begged for her forgiveness. She picked up the note and looked at it even though she knew the words without looking at it.
“Peri kizi, will you forgive me?”
All around the room, there were evidences of Serkan’s love. She was surrounded by it.
He told her multiple times how he loved her, not caring when she didn’t respond to it.
“My sweet robot, will you forgive me?” she said out loud.
She needed to fix this, immediately. She will deal with her grandmother later.
Eda looked through the window and saw her grandma’s chauffeur parked in front of her house.
She needed an escape plan. She went to her balcony and looked down. It was not that high, she thought optimistically.
Eda changed herself in that red dress Serkan gave her, took her jacket and purse and crossed the fence oh her deck.
“Not that high.” She counted on three, and jumped.
“Ouch!”
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Serkan was drawing a new concept for the project, not doing really well, since his mind and heart weren’t there.
“Ah, Eda. What did you do to me?” he thought miserably.
He went to the kitchen, to pour himself a drink, when he heard a door bell.
He frowned, looked at his watch to see its half past midnight, wondering who could that be.
Serkan walked towards the door and almost fell over when he saw Eda behind the door. “What was she doing there?”
“Eda?” he said with a reserve, but she could still see shock in his eyes. Maybe even a bit of joy was there too?
“I am sorry Serkan” she said while she leaned heavily on the wall. Her leg hurt as hell, but she didn’t care. She needs to apologize to him.
“I am really sorry. I didn’t mean any of it. My grandmother warned me if I don’t break up with you, she would ruin you…But I can’t stand it anymore. I don’t want anyone to interfere in our relatiomship anymore. I don’t want to be without you anymore. I missed you so much. Every time when I see you, my heart beats faster, almost as it wants to run to its owner. And that is you Serkan. You are owner of my heart, my soul and my body. You imprinted yourself all over me Serkan. Your signature is all over my body, all over my body. I belong to you, I belonged to you since the first day. And I hope you belong to me too. When you are not close to me, I breathe harder, close to having a panic attack. When I wake up, your face is the first thing that comes to my mind, and your touch is the only thing on my mind when I go to sleep. I can’t go like this anymore. I need you. I want you to marry me, I want you to take me to Paris like we always talked. I want to be mother of your children. I want us to grow old together in our house that you built for us. I want to die in your arms, happy for spending my life with you. I love you, Serkan. I loved you for a long time, and that will never go away. I loved you since I first laid my eyes on you, I love you now, and I will love you till the rest of my life. So, please, I am sorry for everything. Will you please take me back, Serkan?”
Eda was breathless after she finished her speech. She looked at him with hope, her heat beating fast.
Serkan was shocked…He never imagined he would her these words from her. She loved him! She really loved him. And here she was, asking for his forgiveness, not knowing he already forgave her when he saw her behind the door.
He looked at her, her beautiful face, her sexy little body, and then he froze again.
She was wearing his dress! And the bracelet he got her, there was it on her hand.
Happy tears fell from his eyes as he smiled infatuated, not believing this was real
He laughed happily and ran to her like a crazy, mad man.
He was mad. Madly in love with her.
Serkan picked her up and kissed her with all his power, both of them sighing in relief. Finally. They were both finally at home!
Serkan licked her lips, begging for more, and she gladly gave him more.
His tongue danced with hers, fighting for dominance, both of them losing and winning at the same time.
Eda moaned softly, not knowing how did she survived for so long without his kisses.
He pressed her on the wall while he kissed and bit and marked her neck. He had do it. She was finally his and his only!
His hands caressed her legs and Eda hissed quietly, but Serkan heard her.
He steps back from her, despite her protest, and he looked at her worryingly.
“Did I hurt you?” he asked her, his eyes searching her face.
“No, aşkim” she answered with a smile.
“I fell and hurt my foot. It’s not a big deal, don’t worry” she said but Serkan was already worried.
He carried her into the apartment and laid her on the couch.
He looked at her swollen feet and immediately panicked.
Serkan hurriedly went to kitchen, took the frozen bag from his freezer and ran to Eda to put in on her foot. She hissed at the cold, but Serkan comforted her gently.
“How did this happen?” he asked as he looked at her.
Her cheeks flushed embarrassingly and she avoided his gaze.
“I may have jumped” she said with an amused smile.
“You may have jumped” he repeated after her with one raised eyebrow.
“From what?”
“Ehh…from a balcony.”
Silence appeared between them as Serkan watched her in shock, while Eda watched him with amused smile.
“You jumped…from a balcony?” he asked her slowly, not believing what he just heard.
“Yeah” Eda answered as she bit her lip, trying not to laugh at his reaction.
“Are you crazy??Do you know how high is it there??”
“Well, in my defense, I really thought it wasn’t that high.”
“You thought it wasn’t….” he massaged his head as a migraine hit his head.
“Oh don’t be so serious! It is not that bad!” Eda defended herself.
“It’s not that bad??? Look at your foot? How is that not bad??”
“Well it will pass, I am already feeling better! Beside, it was the only way for me to come to you. My grandmother’s chauffeur was in front of my house!”
“You jumped just because you wanted to see me? Why?”
“I already told you. I am crazy about you, Serkan Bolat” Eda said with a loving gaze and smile
He shook his head repetitively. When he stopped, he looked at her, this crazy girl, with a tiny smile on his face.
“You really are something, Eda Yildiz” he said while he caressed her face.
She closed her eyes and leaned at his touch.
“Kiss me.”
He complied. They kissed for a long time, happy to be in each other’s arms.
“Seni seviyorum, Serkan Bolat” she whispered to him.
“Bende seni seviyorum, Eda Yildiz” he whispered back.
“More than you know” he said and kissed her again and again and again.

Author’s note:

So much sappiness in this shot, I could barely recognize my dark and twisted soul!
I believe Serkan deserved this, after all, and I wish Eda says him something like this in future episodes.
The world right now is on fire, and I hope everyone is alright and safe. We need to care about our Earth, and we are doing terrible job at it.
Stay safe ♡