He saved my Life|TK

24. goodbye

"gguk?" a question has been bugging taehyung this whole time whole cuddling with jeongguk, but he was scared to ask, actually not wanting to know the answer, since he was scared. "when are you gonna leave?" what if he will leave too soon? taehyung wouldn't be able to live these last days in happiness, not when he knows his best-friend-life-savior-crush is going to leave him soon.

later would be better.

jeongguk turned to look at taehyung and noticed his conflicted expression. his eyes softened at the view and he felt a guilty tug on his heart. "a cousin of mine is gonna pick me up as far as i know..."

taehyung hummed, not used to hear that. jeongguk always said he had no family besides his two brothers, ayeong and taehyung. suddenly hearing that he has cousins, aunts or whatever was so unfamiliar.

"when is he gonna pick you up then?"

jeongguk bit his bottom lip and looked away from taehyung. "tomorrow morning."

he was expecting it to be soon, taehyung was ready to hear 'in a week' 'in a few days', but not right the day after and in the morning. his heart shattered into small little pieces and he felt the tears he had been holding in this whole time now being about to leave his eyes. "s-so soon?" he asked, voice broken, merely a whisper.

jeongguk nodded, quickly holding onto taehyung tighter, knowing he was about to cry. "i'm so sorry, tae.."

taehyung muffled his quiet sobs in the fabric of jeongguk's shirt. "n-no, it's okay, don't be sorry. i wouldn't give a chance like this away either, s-so please don't be sorry." his words were hiding his breaking heart though.

"you're an angel, taehyung. i'm always with you, yeah? not physically but still i'm there for you." taehyung heard the guilt in jeongguk's voice. of course he's happy for jeongguk, yet still, he wishes for nothing more, but everything to stay the same, with jeongguk not leaving.

"promise?" hopefully this promise will be kept till eternity. "i promise, bub." hopefully.

"does nana know?" taehyung then asked and jeongguk hummed. "she was the first person i told this. i wanted to reject the offer immediately, but she said that i should give it a chance and get to know the people i share my blood with, even if my parents are... you know. dead."

taehyung only hummed, wishing his grandma hadn't told him to. but it is what it is now and he has to somehow survive his college years without jeongguk.

a quiet moment passed, before jeongguk broke the silence again. "hey.. i really don't want to leave you. please.. please come with me."

taehyung hid his face further in jeongguk's chest. "i.. i can't, jimin, college, nana... i can't leave seoul so easily. this is my home."

jeongguk's heart ached. "you are my home though, tae.." taehyung froze when jeongguk tightened his hold even more on him, "and i don't wanna leave my home either, you know?"

turning his head away, taehyung tried to hide his tears, hide the pain. "gguk.. please-

"come with me, bub, i-i beg you.." taehyung closed his eyes when he felt jeongguk's place his hand on his cheek. "you promised not to leave me too. 'you saved my life, i won't leave you'- that's what you always said. we both promised not to leave.."

"jeongguk, i beg you-

"no, bub, i beg you. we both can keep this promise if you come with me-

"or if you don't go! you were fine without knowing about your family, everything was just fine until you got that stupid letter. if you stay everything will stay how it is and we both won't be left with broken promises!"

jeongguk's jaw tightened and he let go of taehyung, sitting up. taehyung followed him with his eyes. "i thought you were happy for me that i got the chance to at least get to know who my parents were, but seems like i misunderstood it," he scoffed and taehyung's heart literally dropped, he quickly sat up too. "j-jeongguk-"

"just because you get no sign from your parents doesn't mean you have to act like this!" jeongguk shouted and taehyung widened his eyes, his hands balling to small fists, as tears pooled in his eyes. "you think i'm jealous because you found your family? i'm happy for you jeongguk, i really am, all i'm asking for is you to stay here, with me and-

"i just don't understand why you cry about it then? you can come with me or stay and you obviously want to stay, all that's left for me is to beg for you to come with me, because i fucking can't without you! is it that hard to say yes?" taehyung took a sharp breath at what jeongguk just said, but he rolled his eyes.

"it fucking is! i'm gonna leave everything behind just for you to become a ceo and barely have time for other things- like me. i always dreamed of college gguk and you know that and i'm not gonna throw everything away just so you can live your rich life."

jeongguk's lips parted, feeling bad. "i-i know you always dreamed of college-

"yeah then stop acting so fucking selfish! you can't force someone to leave with you, who has everything here!"

jeongguk looked into taehyung's eyes, holding back from hugging him tightly against his chest and wipe his tears away. he really wanted to do that, but maybe that would make parting only harder. "you know what, just stay here in seoul, at least we're breaking this promise together," he got up and walked towards the door, opening it.

taehyung just stared at the direction for seconds.

"go on, leave, i have to pack" jeongguk gestured outside and taehyung finally understood the assignment. guess, that was the final goodbye.

taehyung wanted to cry even more, but instead stayed strong and wiped his tears away. he grabbed his phone, harshly prying it off of the charger and stormed towards door, stopping in front of jeongguk for a moment. their cold, emotionless faces met and even if they appeared to look strong and unbothered, internally they were both breaking.

"i hate you," taehyung gritted out and jeongguk gulped, but still held his cold expression. "goodbye, taehyung."

then taehyung stormed off, only hearing how jeongguk harshly slammed the door shut behind him.

and that was where the button was pressed and taehyung realized what just happened. he turned back to the closed door of jeongguk's and hoseok's dorm room.

he felt empty as the tears now rolled down his face like nothing, he felt empty when he trotted to his own dorm room, empty when he unlocked the door, brushed his teeth and showered. still empty, when he laid down in bed, at only 8pm, hoping to fall asleep before jimin would comes and asks questions.

and jeongguk?- he was breaking.

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at some point, all my stories have to have a little angst hehe