Part 1 in Devansh Series
The Mantri sisters have been thrown into a familiar yet unfamiliar world of devas, asuras, devansh, and age-old enmity. When faced with a choice, they have to follow into a mission to the lands of the enemy. Will they prove...
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"Di, I..." I stood up. I didn't know how to explain. I didn't mean for anyone to hear it. I only wanted to confess it to Adi and Harsh. Two people who I know wouldn't jusge me for my feelings.
"No words are needed after this, Sonakshi. She had spent 17 years pining for her daughter and all she gets is a girl who says she doesn't want to be her daughter."
"You're getting it the wrong way."
"Getting it the wrong way? I heard from my own ears, Sonakshi. The entire world calls her 'Mother'. She held you in her womb for 9 months. While she was mortal. Constantly having to worry about Asuras wanting to take revenge. Then gave birth to you after labour and you have no regard for it. Thank you for being so unkind to her because you're a coward."
Di walked away with that. I didn't know what to do. I knew how idiotic it was but what was I even supposed to do? My life had been so carefully structured that the sudden chaos wasn't something I could deal with.
After wishing it for so long, I had finally found my family. The anger in her eyes and accusations. It felt like I was the problem. I didn't want to feel that way but if I could stop it, I would have.
Who do I explain what I was going through? If there was a medicine for it, I would have taken it. Even if I try, I cannot live in that chaos. I never wanted to let anyone down. If I could stop being scared, I would have. Ask me a day I hadn't wished that this ebbing feeling wouldn't disappear. This fear of chaos wouldn't disappear.
Every time it happens, I vividly remember how it ended. Five people ended up dead. Regardless of whether they were good or evil, I had murdered five humans. It wasn't about the kind of people that were killed, it was that I had lost control over myself and five people ended up dead. It was them back then, what if it is someone innocent now? Not that their death had gone away from my conscience, if someone innocent is harmed, I wouldn't ever be able to bear it. I almost attacked Guru Parshuram. It was him so he came out unharmed but what if it was someone else?
The look of her accusation scarred me deep inside. The anger she had in her eyes. The disgust. The disbelief that anyone of her blood would act like this.
I tried to breathe and calm down myself. My hands shook. I grabbed onto the tree branch. My cheek got wet.
"Sona, she doesn't know you yet." Adi hugged me. "She has only recently met you. She has mistaken about you. You're the sweetest person I know. I know who you are. You would be the last person to be ungrateful to your mother. Being scared of her is not the same as having no respect for her. I know you love her and respect her. She is not in the place that you are in, Sonakshi. So she possibly cannot understand. You're just being honest with your feelings. Why should you be apologetic about being honest?"
I ran off. Running and running. Running from everything and everyone. The wish to be alone and somewhere I wouldn't be judged. "Sona..." Adi called me out. I dashed up the stairs into my door and closed the door behind me. Like a tap turned on, the tears fell freely. I crawled into a ball over the bed and held on to the pillow. I wanted to hide myself like wishing I could just disappear.
