Fated Stars

THIRTY-THREE

I carresed the hurt face of my bestfriend. I brought here to my condo. And after crying so much along the wayz she finally fell asleep

"Fritz.."

She has been calling that name ever since she fell asleep. My heart and head hurts so much seeing her like this.

Tinignan ko ang relo ko kung anong oras na. Ala una na pala ng madaling araw. Sobrang dami ng iniisip ko nitong mga nakaraang araw kaya sumasakit na ang ulo ko.

Wala sa sarili akong naglakad palabas. Kinatok ko ang condo na kaharap ng condo ko. Hindi ko alam kung gising pa siya at hindi ko din alam kung bakit sa kaniya ako pumupunta ngayon.

Bumukas ang pintuan ngayon. He's still awake.

Pagod ko siyang tinignan at ngumiti. Maayos ang pakiramdam ko nitong mga nakaraang araw kahit na maraming iniisip. Ngayong nakita kong nagkaganito si Freya ay parang bumalik sa akin lahat ng pagod na natatabunan lang ng mga isipin ko nitong mga nakaraang araw.

Pagod akong lumapit sa kaniya at sinandal ang ulo sa balikat niya. Sa marahan at may pag-iingat ay niyakap niya kaagad ang mga braso sa akin

"What's wrong?"nag-aalala niyang tanong

Walang pumapasok sa isip ko ngayon kundi ang sitwasyon lang ni Freya. I have never seen her that broken before. Even with a lot of problems, Freya would always choose to smile and be positive.

That weak and broken Freya made me feel week and broken as well. When I met Freya before, I was happy that she became my friend even in my weird situation.

Freya would always listen to me. She's always there for me. She always makes me laugh. She helps me deal with my problems. She knows me so well.

But...

I didn't even know her the same way as she knows me. I wasn't able to make her happy as much as she does to me. I never...even bothered asking her if she's okay.

Because I thought...Freya would always be Freya. I thought she can handle everything alone because she don't like bothering me. I thought she'll be fine no matter what because she has always been strong.

But I was stupid to believe all of that. I was stupid to believe she was fine all this time. I was stupid for never asking...

"Do you want to come in?"tanong niya ngayon habanh hinahagod ang likod ko

Pumasok kami ngayon at naupo sa sofa sa living room niya. Iginiya niya ang ulo ko sa balikat niya at hinahagod 'yon. Pumikit ako habang ginagawa niya 'yon. Ang mga haplos niya ay nagsasabing andito lang siya sa tabi ko, handang makinig sa kahit anong sabihin ko ngayon.

"Can I ask for a leave for Freya?"tanong ko ngayon

Hindi siya nagsalita at naramdaman ko lang na tumango siya. Nanatili siyang tahimik. He didn't even ask what happened. Naghihintay lang siya na ako mismo ang magsabi non.

"Freya...is not okay. Right now and I think for the next following days"kwento ko at naisip na naman ang nakita kanina

"She have always been strong. But you know...when I saw her earlier weeping and kneeling, it broke me so much"my voice broke after I said that

Naramdaman kong hinalikan nkya ang sentido ko kaya mas lalong nagbara ang lalamunan ko.

"I am bad friend to her. I didn't check on her. She was there for me in my dark nights but now..."