"Till the end of time"-malec x oc

chapter 36

walking out of the office i dont bother to look at alec or even stop to speak to him.

tear marks run down my face as i brush my hair infront of my face so he doesnt see.

i just walk around him walking down the hallway until i reach my room.

he calls my name the whole time following me asking me to speak to him. it hurts listening to him call my name as i keep walking.

i close the door to my room stopping him from coming in locking it before he can walk in.

"gracie please," he calls threw the door."whatever my parents have said i promise we can fix it," he speaks his voice soft and calm making me shake my head.

i sigh and slide down the door bringing my legs to my chest hearing they're words over and over.

"he wouldn't ever go for you"

"you will never be a true shadowhunter"

"a childish thing like you could never fight back"

"alec respects himself enough not to date you."

"your a disgrace to all shadowhunters."

"as valentines daughter your one of the most hated people in the shadowhunter world."

a fresh tear rolls down my face as i think about everything.

"gracie please."alec speaks quietly threw the door his voice cracking slightly making me take a deep breath not to say anything back.

i sit there spacing out thinking about how complicanted life has become ever since i left to go to that concert with clary.

i wish i could go back to when all i did was lay on my bed colouring.

i wish i could go back to baking cookies with mom.

i wish i could go back to not worrying about anything.

but i cant.

hearing shuffling outside my door i wipe my face harshly listening to the sound of footsteps leaving i known alec has left making me break down once more.

i pick myself up off the floor walking over to the bed ive only slept in a couple times i sit down looking at my shakey hands as tears run down my face dripping onto alec's joggers.

as my tears dry and my mind goes blank out the corner of my eye i notice my bag. a shiny silver stick pokes out the top of it making me frown.

i sigh brushing my hair out of my face before standing up and walking over to the bag.

i pull it out realising it the steele my mom gave me for my birthday.

i sigh holding it in my hand as its the only thing i have to rememeber mom.

looking at it i think how clary knows everything about this know.

she knows how to use it.

she knows what shes doing.

i sigh putting it down on the desk before turning around looking at the bookshelf in my room.

walking over slowly i run my fingers along the spins of each book looking for one that may answer my questons since none of my friends will.

"steeles: incipientium"

i stop at this book slowly pulling it of the shelve. turing it in my hands i sigh.

i glance at the door before grabbing my steele of the desk and walking over to the bed.

i dont know how long i was sat there reading before i understood what was going on.

but i knew what this item was now.

"stele's are used to draw runes onto shadowhunters skin."

is the line that pulled me the most.

after reading that book i flipped threw a book filled with rune symbols looking for one i could try out.

finally finding a rune called "Iratze"

its the healing rune

pulling off alec hoodie i look down at my wrist where im going to draw the rune.

i grab my stele fidiling with it in my hand before sliding it into the correct postion in my hand making the end of it light up.

i glance at the book that is open on my lap before looking back my wrist.

slowly bring my stele up i glide it over drawing a line making me gasp at the pain slightly.

its not to painful but it burns.

i grunt looking back at the picture before going back drawing more of the rune whincing at the pain.

when it was finally done i was very impressed. i couldnt pull my eyes away seeing it on my skin as i moved.

when it came to testing it out however i was a little scared.

i move the books and and stele off my lap looking down at my other arm before scratching a long red line into my arm.

and with my amazement it just heals straight away. not a mark or a scratch or any blood left behind.

a smile comes onto my face as i do it again and watch the mark disapear.

i smile to myself knowing im not going to be as fragile anymore.

getting up i go into the bathroom and turn on the shower.i look at myself in the mirror wonderng if maybe its time for soemthing different.

ive always had my long whites blonde hair. always dressed in light colours amminting happiness.

well thats what mom said.

maybe its time for something else.

opening the draws under the sink i pull out a box.

"purple hair dye." i read looking at it.

what the hell is hair dye doing in here?

either way...think its time for a change.

so i applied the dye and then let it sit reading some more of the book of stele's although now ive read it twice.

i showered and wrapped myself ina twoel before walking over to the wardrobe.

izzy had found me and clary some clothes at the start of all this but we didnt like them. so we found others.

but now looking at the skirt and top hung up in my wardrobe im thinking it looks great.

sliding on the black top and the skirt i look at myself in the mirror.

i decided not to dye my whole hair purple just streaks of it adding something different.

that mixed with the black outfit i look hot.

jeez...

i sit down at the desk slowly opening the draw seeing the make up izzy set up in here to.

playing around for a moement before putting on some lip gloss and a little bit of eyeliner i look at myself in the mirror.

"wow" i mutter seeing how completely different i look.

theres not one thing innocent and cute about me.

"time to go grow up." i mutter looking at myself. i nod before getting up grabbing a pair of black trainers.

still am not wearing heels.

and alec's jacket sliding it on before grabbing my stele and unlcoking my door and leaving.

oh shit....whats gonna happen now??????