"Till the end of time"-malec x oc

chapter 7

he shoves me aginst the wall of the room that we had been staying in. kisisng deep marks into my neck making me laugh pushing him away from me.

his confusedface makes me scoff

"you think we're just gonna come in here and make out..everything will be okay again?" i ask him scoffing making his already confused face even more confused.

"you've lost me" he says pulling his shirt off throwing it onto the floor sitting down on the bed.

"your joking right?" i ask him shaking my head looking at him in amzement. he shakes his head back atme making me loudly laugh."you dont belong here? since you've arried you've caused nothing but problems?" i ask repeating his words back to him.

 my turn to let my voice drop as i walk towards him annoyed.

"everything bad that has happend recently is all because of me" i whisper to him as i stand inbeiween his legs.

 he goes to put his hands on em as i speak but i scoff and step back.

"im sorry i..i wasnt it wasnt baout you2 he says making e sahke my head letting tears form in my eyes now showing him how hurt i acuyally am by this.

"no alec...the thing is ..ist is"i say wrapping my arms around myself as he looks at me."your parents hate you now...you've lost all leadership you had and why because of me" i say letting the tears roll down my face.

 he goes to tand up and wrap me in a hug but i step back agin holding my hands up.

"you pulled me from little space after i havent been there in forever" i tell him my voce coming out ion short breaths." and it wasnt even important....you just insulted me." i mutter trying not to complteely break out into tears."after everything...everythig with magnus and me and you ...." i whisper to him barely able to look at him anymore.

 he watches painfully from the bed as i stand there breathing heavily.

"just go" i mutter looking away from him.

"gracie i-"he says standing up looking at me.

"just get out" i whisper looking away from him still not able to even look at him.

 i listen to him sigh before he grabs his shirt and jacket offt the bed before walks out of the room leaving me there.

after another tears rolls down my facwe rhen does another ant ehn i just burst out crying.

its like the worst pain ever...

i wish that stupid healing rune could heal a broken heart cause thats all i feel right now.

i fell to the floor sobbing my eyes out, letting everything just come out.

pulling myself off the floor mascara and snort and tears running down my face, wiping my face i leave my room walking down the hall knocking on clarys door.

i push it opne seeing her sat by the window looking out seeing teras down her face too.

"clary" i mutter making her look at me before i burst into tears agin amking her come and pull me into a hug.

we lay on her bed looking at each other. 

after all that has been going onlately ive realised ive missed her so much.

"you know mom tried to kill jace2 she whispers to me as i feel sleepy. she plays with a piece of washed out purple in my hair as we lay there.

"why?" i ask her confused.

"she thinks hes evil..that he's goning to hurt us all" she whispers back to me makingme shake my head.

"jace wouldnt do that" i say back to her making a smile appear on her face,.

"i know" she says smiling back at me.

she ist up making me frown at her sudden movement but sh walks over to the book shelve in the room.

 she pulls out a sketch book making me frown.

"i had all my things transfered here" she speaks making me frown as she walks over to me and sits down on the bed.

 she sits down making me sit up and shuffle next to herlaying my head on her shoulder watching as she pens the book and smiles sadly at the dawring infront of her.

 i dont recongize it but it must mean something to her.

as she goes to turn the page izzy walks in threw thw edoor making me look up at her.

she looks at me and smiles sadly clearly seeing alec sice he left our room.

"Hey, guys2 she says coming over to the bed a small sad smile on her facethe whole time as she sits down next to us." all those things Alec said about you... you know I don't feel that way." she speaks making me look at her and smile slightly.

 im glad to know someone trust us.

alec should...

"You have every right to. None of this is your fault. Alec, he's stressed out." izzy tells us making me sigh and look away.

 stresse out or not. he should have never said those things.

" With his parabatai gone, he's like a different person." izzy teslls us reaching for my hand squeezing it making me sigh and squeeze it back.

"but Alec's right. we're not one of you." clary speaks making me and izzy look at her confused."we're just some girls from Brooklyn who went out to celebrate their birthdays and came back with a present they never wanted. and cant return"clary speaks sadly tear filling her eyes making me look at her tears filling my eyes.

 i understand everything she is speaking but right now i dont wish to tll her i dont belive the same.

alec is an ass..but i like him. and if none of this would have happened i would have never met him or magnus.

"You don't want to return that present. It's a blessing." izzy tells clary sadly smiling at her expecting clary to smile back like i did but shedoesnt.

"Not for me. I just... I want to feel normal again,"clary says making me look at her sadly." Isabelle. I... I want my old life back. "clary says looking at me making me frown at her.

"I'm sure. But don't you get it? You both have a target on your back. The Institute is the safest place for you."izzy tells us dropping m y hand but not before giving it another squeeze." You have a new life now. You have me. And that's not gonna change." she speaks smilingh at us finally making clary look at her and smile too.

izzy leaves the room leaving us both with small smiles on our faces.