Amar De Nuevo ✔

Pecado 32

Ever since that day, it became my worst nightmare. It haunts me, it always chase me. And i'm it's willing victim, I do think that it's all my fault because i supposed to take care of myself but then i'm so engrossed on my mourning it's to late realize that it's killing us.

"She's not responding to me Mr. Korazon, we tried everything we had here but none of those she responded. I think it's better if we leave her for the mean time. We do think she's reflecting on something."

"Ah, yes!" My father only respond.

I'am reflecting on something, i'm starting to hate my decisions in life that it took me to where i'am right now. It haunts me. It frustrate me that i wanted to scream, i wanted to cry, i wanted to break things. But none of those happens. My body won't move, i just lie here in the bed, sometimes sits on it and stare at the window.

I heard a noise coming to me, then in my peripheral vision i see Dad sat on the chair besides me. He then opens his can of cigarettes and hold it tight.

"What have you done to yourself hija?" He sincerely asked. But i didn't reply, because i knew that he wasn't worried to me. He was worried of what others might say to him and his reputation.

"Go back to your sense, hija. Better yet forget about it, forget what happened." He said before lashing out to my room. I did not feel pain, for him not taking care of me anymore.

I do always hear them arguing, Dad and Mommy Louise about me. But I don't care anymore.

"Will you shut up!"

"I won't shut up Salvador not until you don't keep bothering Akiko like this! She needs to rest! She just lost her child! Why can't you understand that?!"

"I will not understand it, she needs to take care of herself but why here?! Hindi pa siya baliw para mapunta rito!"

"She needs to stable herself, lalo na ang mental health niya! O baka mas gusto mo siyang nandun sa mansion nag lalaslas at nag iiiyak habang naririnig ng mga kapatid niya?!"

"She's okay already! Hindi na siya naiyak hindi katulad ng dati so bakit kailangan niya pa mag tagal rito?!"

"She's okay?! She's not responding to anything the doctor says to her then you'll tell me she's okay?! Salvador i thought i knew you better about the welfare of Akiko. Matagal ko na itong napapansin sayo pero bakit nga ba pinilit kong baliwalain at eto na nga ang nangyari sakanya."

"It's not my fault na nag pabuntis siya sa kung sino sinong lalaki--"

"Salvador! How could you! She's your own daughter!"

"I don't have a daughter who's a disgrace on Korazon Family!"

They always fight about me, they taught i don't hear it because i don't respond to anyone but they're wrong.

Five months had passed before i respond to their treatment slowly and now i'm here for a stroll with the nurse assign to me. She's friendly and she's a Filipina also.

"Halika dun tayo sa garden, malilim dun saka pwede kayong tumingin tingin dun ng mga bulaklak at lumanghap ng fresh air." 

We got there and rest for a bit, Lena my nurse said she'll be back because someone called her so i only nodded in response. 

Across the garden there's a pound there then i saw a familiar face of Lewis sitting on the chair across the pound. Giving foods to the fish. I push myself to move and sit next to him. I thought he'll not notice me and will not remember me but nagulat ako dahil kilala niya pa rin ako.

"What happened to you Akiko? Why are you here on the Rehab?" He asked me, still not looking at me and feeding the fish in the pound.

"G-getting my sanity back.... And you?" I don't know what happened but i was my first word since i got here.