Amar De Nuevo ✔

el ultimo pecado

This is the Last Update of this Story, thank you for staying by at Emil and Akiko's side until the end. Until the next entry of Downfall Series. Adios mi amore's!

Gentle breeze from the sea came inside the house so I don't really feel the summer heat that's also coming from outside. I looked at the outside window and saw the dancing leaves from my plants swaying as the breeze continue to use it's force to provide wind.

"Are you comfortable at this house?" My Doctor asked me as i threw my glance at her. Nearly forgetting that she's here to see me.

"Yes, it's peaceful and quiet. I like it." I told her honestly as she smile at me again and begin to write something on her notepad.

"I'm glad that you liked it here. All the travels that you spend for the entire five years searching for a place to be at peace. I'm glad that you choose it here. Mas mapapadali rin ang pag punta ko sayo, dahil mas malapit ka na at hindi na natin kailangan mag skype."

"Thank you for your patience at me Doctora." I sincerely tell her, because she deserves it the most. She never questions my whereabouts at where do i want to stay. Hindi siya nag sawang intindihin ako.

Dahang-Dahan siyang tumayo mula sa pag kakaupo niya kaya naman napatayo rin ako mula sa pag kakaupo. Mukhang kailangan niya ng umalis ngayon na nakita niya na ako.

"I need to go, i have someone to check to at the south too. Mag ingat ka rito okay? Do call me or text me if you have something on your mind. Do visit the local market downtown if you're bored. I'll get going mag pahinga ka na rin muna."

After her farewell at me, I watched her as she walk away from me and at my house. May dumating na kotse nag hatid rin sakanya rito kanina at sumakay siya sa sasakyan na yun matapos niyang mag bigay ng kaway sakin indikasyon na aalis na siya.

Hindi rin nag tagal ay unti unti ng nawala mula sa paningin ko ang kotse kaya naman muli akong tumingin sa dagat na nasa tapat ng bahay ko. It feels like it's calling me. I feel comfort as i walk towards the sea and decides to seat not too far from the shore. I just listen to the breeze and the waves clashing as I watched the sun's about to go down.

Different thoughts try to invade my mind but i try to clear it and do not think about it. I'm still at the verge of healing but i believe that I'm not that suicidal unlike from the past five year ago. Before i continue to do my therapy.

I stay away from the people who's been very dear to me because i don't want to affect them on my healing. And because the thoughts of I don't heal that much if they surrounds me like I'm going to disappear one day again.

Sometimes i stay connected with them, hindi ko binago ang phone number ko just because i still want them to know that even if they don't see me they can still reach me on my contacts.

Things have been more far different since i got back at New York five years ago. I decided to get a Divorce from Jason na sinang-ayunan niya rin naman kaya walang nagawa si Dad kundi talakan ako hanggang sa mag sawa siya. When the divorce successfully paid off, kinabukasan rin nun ay umalis ako ng mansion namin sa New York na siya naman kinalungkot nila Mommy, Liam and Sharina. But they decided to not force me onto that house again.

Binalitaan ko rin sila Mamang mula sa Pilipinas kaya naman sobrang saya nila para sakin. But when they knew about na hindi ako maninirahan sa Pinas nor sa New York nag alala sila para sakin. I decided to live on my own and take in charge on my own life for the first time since i got pregnant.

I used the money that I've been saving and the Alimony that i got from Jason matapos ang divorce namin. For the first year of me being free from their graps, there's no day that I don't think of coming back at the Philippines and be together with Emil. But i forbid myself, that cause me to break down again. If it isn't for Jason ng makita ako sa Apartment ko sa Seattle at naka handusay. I don't know kung saan ako pupulutin kung hindi siya pumunta that day.