Finding My Way To Reach Your Heart ✓

11. A chance to understand

"I already knew it Sanskar." Swara said.

Sanskar was looking at her with shocked expression on his face.

"You knew it?" Sanskar could merely whisper.

"Yes I came to know it in that party only, and secondly my Dad had also told this to me. So, it wasn't hidden from me." Swara said.

"You knew still you said yes for the marriage? Why?" Sanskar asked with confused face.

"Because I don't see this reason is important enough to know that someone is good for me or not." Swara said.

"Ms. Swara, either you don't understand anything or you don't want to. You are okay to marry a guy who is physically disabled? You are completely perfect and you wanted to add imperfection in your life by marrying me?" Sanskar asked unbelievably.

"Being disabled doesn't make anyone imperfect. And if this is the reason of yours for saying no to marry me then I m sorry, this doesn't make any sense to me." Swara said.

"Doesn't make sense? Really? You are compromising with your life and it doesn't matter? Ok, you agreed knowing about me already but just tell me something if a girl has given two choices- one is me and other a guy who is also successful and is having everything like I have except for this disability, then whom would she choose?... Oviously that guy not me, and if she will choose me whether it's for her sympathy or her own decision then she will definitely regret her decision once in her life. Because, For once we think that we can live with compromise but for whole life, it makes quite difficult for us. Marriages should not be based on a compromise. It should be happiness and consent of both with their, with their choice." Sanskar said.

Swara was listening to him without saying a word. Sometimes, listening make it easier to understand people.

"I am not perfect for you Ms. Swara. It's better if you accept this. I don't want to be a reason of a girl's pain by marrying her, and definitely not yours." Sanskar said looking at her.

"You are stuck to your decision just because of this reason only. Sanskar, I don't see any imperfection in you. And, I don't know what a girl will choose when she was given the choice like you said but I will only choose you. Yes, you are right. Marriages are not based on compromises and I understand that. Neither, I am compromising with my life. I..." Swara tried to say when Sanskar interupted.

"Then you need to understand Ms. Swara. (Taking a deep breathe, Sanskar continued) Some decision can lead us to pain in our life. A girl have all rights to choose best for her, lead a happy married life without any problems, without any fear and I just can't ruin it. She has dreams to have a beautiful life with her life partner and I just can't ruin that dream with my presence. It will make me feel guilty. I don't want to burden myself on anyone. It already make me feel worse when I see disappointed face of my mom, dad, my family, when everyday they see no improvement with this. (Signalling toward his right arm). They give themselves hope or Should I say false hope, that I will be like before. I will be perfectly fine but at the end of the day, there is always a sadness in their eyes. And I feel myself like a failure. I regret that day when I met with accident and only wish to erase that day from my life but I can't.
I feel helpless. They are my family that's why they don't pity me. Still, I try to be happy with them, for them.
But when I m outside, every single person only look at me with sympathy. That look at him, he is no. 1 business man but what's the use when he is disabled. I go through that everyday and I just can't explain what it makes me feel. People just show that they accept everyone the way they are, but in reality it's just their pity that they can show. I jus... I just don't want anymore sympathy in my life because I have had enough." Sanskar said and his eyes were expressing his pain.