Finding My Way To Reach Your Heart ✓

56. A Chaos without him

"I can never have a baby, Riya." Swara muttered slowly and Riya's face expression changed.

"What?" Riya was shocked with this revelation. For a second, she couldn't register what she heard.

Swara nodded and cried in her embrace.

"I can never become a mother, Riya. " Swara said again with heavy voice.

Riya broke the hug and she held her shoulder and asked looking at her.

"Swara, who told you this? Are you sure? This is..." Riya was saying when Swara interrupted.

"I got confirmation from the doctor last month. She said I can never have a baby." Swara said and squeezed her eyes shut.

Riya looked at her vulnerable state and she understands whatever she said was no lie or any kind of joke. The look on her face shows how broken she was. She immediately pulled her into hug and unknowingly her eyes also filled. She has never seen swara so weak and devastated. It's like she has lost hope. Ofcourse, she has. After doctor's confirmation, what must be she going through?

"Why didn't you tell me till now? Why you were holding this all to yourself?" Riya asked.

"I just..just couldn't tell you Riya. But I.. I felt so vulnerable. I just couldn't tell anyone. You are going through the best phase of your life. How could I spoil it. And I am so sorry.. I am telling you all this and spoiling your day like this.." Swara tried to stop herself but she couldn't.

"Shut up!! Just shut up Swara!! How could you do this? Swara, we are sisters, not just friends. How could you hide this and why you were holding all this inside your heart. Why you didn't share? Swara, I am always there for you. Just because we are married and don't live in neighborhood that doesn't mean you will stop sharing your pain or happiness to me." Riya said in a bit angry tone.

"I just... Just don't know Riya. I am not able to understand anything. I.. i.." Swara's voice choked and she couldn't just say anything word more.

Riya hugged her and let her cry. She patted her hair gently to let her relax. She didn't try to stop her and let her cry.

"I am not able to take it Riya. I am not. Why me? I didn't do anything wrong. Then why me? Am I so worst that God has done this to me?" Swara said in between her cries.

"No swara, you are very special. You never did wrong to anyone. Don't lose hope Swara. There must be some chances. We can go to some other doctor and treatment..." Riya said.

"No, Riya. I can't. My reports clearly state that I am incapable of carrying a baby. I don't want to live in illusion or give myself and people around me to have false hope. And then? Then what shatter the hope? No Riya, I don't want to lie to myself. This is my truth and I hate that I am still not able to come over it." Swara said and her tears never stopped.

"Let it out Swara. Tell me what are you holding to yourself. I know you are not the girl who will just shatter because you can't have baby. What's breaking you Swara? Tell me ." Riya asked slowly as she knew her best friend well. She is strong girl. There must be something that is shattering her from inside. As much she knows Swara and looking at her like this, she understood that even Sanskar doesn't have any idea about this. Obviously, Swara must have hidden from him too.

"You still didn't tell Sanskar, Right?" Riya asked.

"I don't know how should I do that Riya? Sanskar love kids. I always see the shine his eyes shows when he play with Rakshit (Laksh and Ragini 3 months son). How can I snatch that right from him. How should I tell him that your Swara is imperfect and she can never give you happiness of being a father? I am scared. What if.. i.. I don't know." Swara uttered and muffled her cries.