Bluer than Blue

P R O L O U G E

   BLUER THAN BLUE

I plainly look at her with my glasses on because before she interrupted me I'm trying to enjoy reading my newly bought book.

Of course, I bought it online.

She's nervous....

I can tell how nervous she is right now, her ears are bright red and she is breathing heavily.

She's a mess right now literally, her hoodie is a mess, her hair, and her mind. It looks like she's fighting with herself. 

Kumunot ang noo ko ng marealize ko na dapat may klase ito ngayon. 

Did she skip her classes again?

Umiiling ko siyang tiningnan ulit after realizing na nag skip siya ng classes nanaman and now she looked more nervous than ever. Sanay na ako she was always like that when I'm around.. well I guess I'm really uncomfortable to be with. It's not that I'm hurt. Pero, I'm bothered and I don't know why?

Of course I am bothered!

She asked me to be her friend but she is not that comfortable around me. I am trying to create a better environment and path for the both of us but it's not working.

Whenever I am trying she is pushing my limits to it's ends and do unexpected things, kaya at the end sumusuko na lang din ako. At the end I can't express myself well... at the end I end up hurting her and denying things that she makes me feel.

We are friends but we're like this. 

Are we really one? 

We are friends yet I am not even sure why we are like this and how we both end up like this. Her confession shocked me and after that we end up like this. Am I the only one who find all of this overwhelming?

My thoughts stopped consuming me when I heard her clearing her throat.

"Blue, I like you." She blurted out, sounding very sure and firm. 

I blinked many times and looked at her intently.  Does she even know what she is saying?

But before I could react to her..

"And I don't have plans to ignore it, like what you suggested me to do. I don't care whether you like the idea or not."

Her mouth knows nothing but honesty and it irritates me. She doesn't play with words. Sasabihin niya pag gusto niya sabihin.

I hate her honesty it makes me wanna trust her.. when I don't even trust myself.

" I-It's not like I'm asking you to like me back." Then what do you want to say?

"I won't push you to your limits but... let me show you how much I adore you in my own ways." And now you're being too straightforward! I thought you like logical things?