Bluer than Blue

I N D I G O

sincerity and devotion

Tell me the words you can't tell...

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She didn't leave my house after what happened with Bea. I thought she would leave me because she's mad and hindi niya ako kinikibo.

I am glad that she's here with me, but we are not talking. We should talk, but how can I talk to her when she's throwing me death glares? I know she's changed over the last five years, but I didn't expect her to be this short-tempered.

Mahaba naman pasensya niya dati.

"It got drained over the last few years." After hours of giving me a silent treatment, nagsalita na siya.

"H-Huh?"

"I can hear you from here, Ivan. You're speaking your thoughts out loud." She's still wearing a serious expression and not throwing me a glance.

Kanina bacon ang pinagseselosan ko, pero ngayon mukhang ang mga bagong biling libro ko ang itatapon ko.

Remind me not to buy books anymore, she's not minding me, but she's so engrossed with my books!

And since when did I become selosa?!

"Pwede bang pansinin mo na ako? Hapon na hindi mo pa rin ako kinikibo." I said hopelessly because I want to hug and hold her but I can't because she's giving me a cold shoulder.

She put down the book she was holding and finally looked at me. I smiled widely when I saw her crease her forehead while looking at me.

"Stop smiling." Masungit na sabi niya, pero tinanggap naman ang blue roses na inabot ko sa kanya. I gave her three pieces of blue roses that I ordered a while ago. Akala ko nga malalanta na ito bago pa niya ako pansinin. "You look like a monkey." She replied while looking at the flower I bought.

Rather than getting offended, I only chuckled, remembering the game that we played years ago. I am too beautiful just to be a monkey; she clearly said that. That's why I don't believe her.

"Your existence is enough to make me dance out of joy." I slowly sat next to her. Nakaupo kasi siya sa sofa ko at sinolo iyon. "Bati na tayo, please?" Panunuyo ko sa kanya.

"Hindi naman tayo magkaaway."

"Then can I hug you?" I asked her.

I have been holding myself back from hugging her and pressing myself against her. I want to be clingy to her, but I am afraid to do it without her consent.

"I'm hungry." She stood up and ignored what I said, but before she could walk, I stopped her. I pulled her towards me, making her sit in my lap. "Ivan!" Sigaw niya.

She was trying to stand up, which is why I snaked my arms around her waist and buried my face in her neck. I inhaled her scent and rested on her neck. We didn't do anything all afternoon, but just thinking about how I should deal with her made me tired, I am not complaining though. I don't mind getting tired and exhausted everyday just to make her smile. I love doing and thinking things for her.

"It's Blue for you. Call me Blue." Pakiusap ko sa kanya. "What should I do, Louisse? What should I do for you to talk to me properly? I know that you know we need to talk."

"B-Blue..." She said it in a tone I didn't want to hear. Why is she having doubts?

I was about to pull away so I could see her face, but she stopped me. She caressed my hair while I was still in her neck. I can feel her shoulders dropping and hugging me back. Her warmth enveloped me, and I loved the idea of hugging her all day.