Always and Forever (Allyse Sequel)

KABANATA 35 - Drive Faster

Nagising akong matamlay at hindi magawang ngitian at batiin sila mama at papa. Alam kong naiintindihan nila iyon kay hindi na nila ako kinulit pa. Kahit ganun ako ay pinagluto ko sila ng pancake at tinemplahan ng kape. Iyon ang breakfast nila. Ako naman ay green tea lang.

"Hindi ka ba kakain, anak?" tanong ni mama. Ngumiti ako at umiling.

"I'm okay ma." kinagat ko ang labi ko at umalis sa kusina. Pumasok ako sa kuwarto ko.

Madaming message sila Crista, Jessa, Mindy, Dave, at Carlisle sa akin. Wala akong ganang replyan sila. At kung sisimulan ko silang replyan baka magtuloy-tuloy lang ang conversation namin. Lalo na itong si Jessa. Nakaka-mind blogging ang mga tanong.

How are you and Shane?

I heard you'll be the maid of honor in a wedding! Who's wedding is that?

Found your mama's facebook account! She's a wonderful woman! But who's that guy with them? I find him cute! I bet you know him! ^_^

Kahit sila isiseenzoned ko. Wala rin akong naririnig sa kapatid kong si Xavier. I miss everyone. I feel so alone. Gusto ko na yatang bumalik sa States para maiwasan nalang ang lahat ng ito. Pero sila mama at papa. Gusto ko silang makitang masaya sa isang participation na matagal na nilang inaasam-asam. 

Okay na rin siguro kung matapos ang kasal, uuwi nalang ako. At least, naabot na ng mag-asawa ang pangarap nila, diba? 

Biglang umilaw ang phone ko. Skype? What? Brooklyn is calling! Mabilis kong ipinatong ang phone ko sa table ko at tinanggap ang video call.

Gosh! Brooklyn is...

"Hi!"

"Shane?" ngumiti ako. Tipid siyang ngumit pabalik. Wait. Bakit parang may kulang sa ngiti niya? Bakit parang may mali?

"Sorry, hindi na ako nakapagreply sa mga calls at text mo. So, I have surprise for you, para naman makabawi ako." agad siyang nawala sa camera at bumalik na dala ang gitara. Ang gitara na regalo ko kay Ate Mackie. Ngumiti siya at nag simula nang kumanta.

It's just another night
And I'm staring at the moon
I saw a shooting star
And thought of you

Ngumiti ako nang makita siyang ngumiti.

I sang a lullaby
By the waterside and knew
If you were here,
I'd sing to you

You're on the other side
As the skyline splits in two
I'm miles away from seeing you
I can see the stars
From America
I wonder, do you see them, too?

Sumeryoso siya.

So open your eyes and see
The way our horizons meet
And all of the lights will lead
Into the night with me
And I know these scars will bleed
But both of our hearts believe
All of these stars will guide us home.

Nanginig ang bibig ko. Oh I freaking miss you del Valle! I saw his eyes glimmer in tears.

I can hear your heart
On the radio beat
They're playing 'Chasing Cars'
And I thought of us.

Back to the time,
You were lying next to me
I looked across and fell in love
So I took your hand
Back through lands and streets I knew
Everything led back to you
So can you see the stars?
Over Amsterdam
You're the song my heart is
Beating to.