Sleeping With My Professor (B×B) [Completed]

CHAPTER 27

Lumipas ang bagong taon na walang kahit isang paramdam si Mr. Alfonso. Nasasaktan ako. Masakit, sobrang sakit.

He ignored and rejected me on special holidays because someone is with him. Someone who can make him happier more than how happy he is when he's with me.

Nakakawasak ng damdamin. After seeing that post, I cried and cried. Masyadong malalim ang naiwang kirot sa puso ko.

A hollow auditorium filled with negative feelings covered the insides of my fragile heart.

Hindi ko alam pero I keep staring at the picture. I know it's stupidity at its highest level. Pero hindi ko maiwasang mapaisip, they really look great together.

Kung kami ba ang nasa picture, gano'n rin kami?

People's comments flooded the post. Masaya raw sila na nagkabalikan na ang dalawa. Masaya sila para sa isa't-isa.

They're relationship back then is supported and admired by a lot of people.

Masasabi rin kaya nila ang mga bagay na gano'n kung kami ang magkasama? Na masaya sila para sa amin?

O puro panghuhusga ang masasabi nila sa amin?.... Sa akin?

I suddenly remember the name 'Sam', it was the same name he uttered when he and I did something intimate on our first encounter, and he mumbled the name with the three words I've been dying to hear from him.

"I love you, Sam." Those were the exact words.

It was also the name of the person that called him that day. The one who made him smile and vulnerable. The one who puts a warm smile and  passionate expression on his sturdy face.

And, it was the exact body figure of the woman I saw with him at the boutique.

I don't know what to think anymore.

Mas lalo akong naguguluhan at nasasaktan.

Matagal na ba akong pinaglalaruan ni Mr. Alfonso?

Kaya ba hindi n'ya magawang lagyan ng label ang relasyon namin dahil, s'ya pa rin? Si Sam pa rin?

After everything that happened between us, was it her all along?

Pero ano iyong pinapakita n'ya sa akin? He showed motives and send signals I apprehended as romantic idea. Am I wrong? Am I delusional?

Or, is he just fooling around?

My trust for him slowly crumbles every passing day. No messages from him keeps my sanity away.

Pero bobo ba ako kung gusto ko pa rin s'yang ipaglaban?

Deep inside me still holds on. Deep in me still believes in him.

Baka nga ako lang iyong naglalagay ng meaning sa post na iyon. Oo tama, I am just paranoid.

What if he lost his phone that's why he can't contact me? Oo, baka nawala lang iyon.

It might be that he and Sam are just friends now. Di ba? Pwede naman kahit na mag-ex na ay maging magkaibigan pa rin? Baka they've settled with a friendship for the good old times sake.

Tama baka nga iyon, 'yon.

I keep comforting my self with thoughts of positivity.

I remained calm and relax on the surface, but I am rigid and almost dying inside.

Litong-lito na ako.

Isang text lang ni Mr. Alfonso, kahit hindi na s'ya magpaliwanag ay kakalimutan ko ang lahat. Kaya kong balewalain ang ilang linggo n'yang pagkawala magoakita lang s'ya sa akin.