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I was getting restless.... I had never been the type to just sit around and wait, I'd much rather be out there looking for Qwantay, but listening to the people around me, they felt it was better to spring a trap for him and I was trying this new thing called listening. It wasn't all bad, I got to sleep in my own bed, eat real food and not that toxic shyt from fast food places, and I wasn't spending money like crazy. Still, I was anxious, I wanted to see my son... call me childish but one of my favorite memories was of my dad taking me to the zoo and I was determined to have that same experience with Jordan. I looked around my house and tried to remain calm, my mood had been back and forth today; some minutes I was chillin and others I was loading up my gun about to go looking for that nigga myself. My good mood came from two places... first, it was Sincere and Jordan, man the two of them were so damn tight, every time I spoke to them Jordan was telling me about 'His Buddy'; I was starting to get a little jealous because Jordan was more protective of Sincere than he was of me and I felt like they should be here with me, doing that bonding together as a family.... The other source of this calming feeling I had came from.....

"So what are you going to do Icon?" Philly asked snapping me from my memory. "Renee wants to have a meeting with all the leaders and that means you but if you're not up for it then you know that nigga Rich will be more than happy to take your spot." Philly said and it definitely wasn't missed by me that there was a hint of a warning in his tone. Rich was my boy, but I couldn't help but notice his loyalty was shifting towards Renee.... not his loyalty but he was feeling her, like this nigga actually had a crush on her and I knew how dangerous nigga's in love could be and how that could flip if that love wasn't returned.

"All this mafia shyt is fine and well, but I'm trying to go out and have a good time.... why is it that every other day she's insisting on having a meeting? Real shyt... all it takes is one if you can't get your point across in one meeting a month then are you really a leader?" Detroit asked and I shook my head, he didn't understand he was a stick-up kid, he kicked down doors and ran up in nigga's houses, he didn't understand the political side of this lifestyle.

"I'll go... tell Rich to take some time off, he's been working too hard." I said trying to remain diplomatic, I could've easily have let Rich handle it but I didn't want him getting too close to Renee, I was in a great position and wanted to stay there so I could monitor her closely.

"Fuck all that other shyt, are we going out tonight?" Courtney asked walking in from my kitchen, one thing about Courtney was he had no problem making himself at home, and usually that would've bothered me but he had shown his loyalty to me during our hunting trip by saving my life a few times so him eating my food didn't bother me. "Look you usually have your meetings closer to dawn, that's plenty of time for us to hit DL's get a couple of drinks in us, and have a good time... possibly scout out some potential targets." Courtney said smiling. "And who knows... we might run into your little boyfriend." Courtney added and I fought the desire to blush.

"Fuck you nigga, that dude isn't my boyfriend...." I said with absolute certainty, while me and Zeus have chilled a few times since we first met it wasn't nothing serious... in fact, all it was, was sex but the sex was always more than enough to help me channel some of this anger. "But, yeah... I know if I stay in the house waiting, I'll probably end up sleeping through Renee's meeting.... Philly, you mind hittin up Rich and letting him know I got it." I said and Philly nodded. They all went one their separate ways, leaving me alone for the most part... Xavion was up in his room, where he usually stayed and since I didn't have shyt else to do I pulled out my phone and scrolled through my contacts until I found a name listed under EGGROLLS....

"Sup man...." Legend said in an irritated voice and I felt a flicker of anger. "My bad man... I'm at this cookout and it's taking everything in me not to toss this BITCH ASS NIGGA on the grill. Wassup?" Legend asked lowering his tone a little.