Reckless

Chris 47

I found a place far away from the villa, far away from the noise, far away from people.... well most people, he had been following me since I left and the strange part is... I wanted him to follow me. This trip may have been fun for everyone else but for me it had been nothing but confusion and headaches; I was getting closer to Hezekiah... thought I was starting to miss our late night talks because they were always deep, but I felt despite my best efforts I had felt a shift in our friendship; it was no longer a friendship but something more and I was still trying to figure out what that 'more' is which is why I had been distancing myself until I figured it out. Then there's Bam.... my body was something that I had always been protective of, but whenever we were in the same room together all I could think about was letting him do whatever he wanted to me; there was a moment in the kitchen when all he did was walk behind me and for the next hour I fantasized about him fuckin me on the kitchen counter... or when he was standing on the patio, simply talking and my eyes were always found that massive print in the front of his shorts and my mouth would start watering because I wanted to taste it.... Finally, we get to the biggest source of my confusion, Dhamir..... I had been trying my hardest not to be alone with him because the only thing I could think of his the trip I took with him and Kemoni; the positions we were in, the conversations we had, the taste of both their........ Bam sat in the sand next to me, the smell of his cologne mixed with the smell of the ocean, it was turning me on in the worst possible way.

"You know what your biggest problem is...." Bam said pulling out a fat ass blunt. "You have too much self-control." He said lighting the blunt,

"I have never heard that having too much self-control is a bad thing, or as you put it, 'my biggest problem'." I said looking at him like he was stupid, right now Bam was falling into that category of dudes who were great to look at but the moment they started talking they lost all sex appeal.

"When was the last time you did something without thinking it completely through.... I mean just went for it without worrying about the consequences?" Bam asked and if I were being honest, the last time would be when I got on that plane with Dhamir and headed out to Denver. "You know there's nothing wrong with letting yourself have fun every now and then... you're too.... too..... straight-laced."

"I really don't see what's wrong with being straight-laced or having discipline. I take sex very seriously, I'm not one of them dudes who is out here suckin and fuckin on every dude that I think is sexy...." I said and Bam started laughing.

"I'm trying to find the correlation... because I didn't mention anything about sex. I'm talking about the entire time we've been here you've been tense like you're worried if you drink too much you'll make a fool out of yourself, or if you hit the blunt you'll do something crazy... this trip is supposed to be about relaxing and you've been babysitting everyone else. When does Chris get to have fun?" Bam asked smiling.

"What makes you think I'm not having fun?" I asked looking back out towards the water.

"I feel like you're too much in your own head.... conflicted about Hezekiah, confused about D-Man, lusting after me... I've been watching, not on no creep type shyt just observing and you are the only one here who doesn't seem like he's having a good time. All I'm saying is let loose... enjoy the moment and stop worrying so damn much." Bam said shrugging.

"Aight.... since you're so fuckin wise, how do you suggest I enjoy the moment?" I asked and Bam held the blunt towards me. Now I wasn't the biggest smoker, I've smoked before but it wasn't really for me... I always felt weird when I smoked.... fuck it; I took the blunt from him and hit it a few times....

That shyt hit me instantly... I sat there on the beach laughing at nothing while Bam sat next me shaking his head, maybe it was the weed but he looked even better while I was high, I mean he looked really fuckin good. Bam smirked and stood up, I wasn't sure what he was about to do but then he took off his beater, then his shorts, followed by his briefs; he stood before me completely naked and I couldn't take my eyes off his dick... that shyt was.... pretty. Bam stood there watching, waiting and I realized what he was waiting for.... I hit the blunt one more time and put it out before standing up and stripping out of my clothes.