Reckless

Frenchie 91

I stood in total darkness looking out at the skyline, I was completely naked, and as badly as I wanted to pick up the phone and call Micah... after the argument we had I thought it was best if I gave him some space. He was right of course but sometimes he needed to trust me when I said that there were some things that he couldn't be involved in, just like there were things he was doing that I couldn't be involved in. Micah believed that we needed to be on the same page, with no secrets between us and I wanted that to be the case... but what I was working on... what I was closing in on... it put my life at risk and us being together put him at risk, so I wanted to keep him at arm's length so that he wasn't in more danger. I really needed to stop thinking about him because though we were mad at each other, I wanted him desperately... I wanted us to take our anger out on each other in the nastiest way possible. Luckily, there was a loud knock on the door that distracted me from my thoughts, I grabbed my bathrobe and I didn't even bother checking to see who it was because there were only two people who knew I was staying there and one of them was in a penthouse a few floors above me most likely breaking Alonzo's back....

"My bad for popping up so late, but you said that all conversations between us needed to happen in person and this couldn't wait." Deuce said as he sat on the couch. If I were being honest, the kid looked miserable... he had been looking like that since he got back from Houston and I had a feeling it had everything to do with Titan. Strangely enough, I felt guilty about what I was doing, I was doing to Deuce the same exact thing Epic did to me... he turned me into a soldier who worked his way up to being a general and even knowing that fact I was still trying to justify it in my head.

"It's coo... I was already up. So what was so important that we needed to talk?" I asked sitting in one of the chairs and adjusting my robe so nothing fell out.

"So I've been following Fidel and Franklin like you asked me to and well they've been making some moves that I consider to be questionable. "Aight, so what makes it so difficult to follow them is that they're rarely together. Franklin seems like he's the brains behind the operations so he's been my main target... well earlier tonight he met up with Cody's uncle, and they talked for about an hour before he dipped off. After that he went to talk to a few dudes I couldn't ID and from the looks of the conversation Franklin was the one in charge." Deuce said and I was impressed with his skills, not only was he able to remember faces but his ability to read people reminded me a lot of Micah.

"What has Fidel been up to?" I asked, while Franklin had my attention at the moment, Fidel was sneaky, and he definitely someone I needed to keep an eye on because he was unpredictable.

"From what I've seen he's been looking into businesses and houses... not really sure why, that information is difficult to access at the moment but I'm working on it." Deuce said and I felt even more guilty because he looked like he hadn't been sleeping.

"When was the last time you slept?" I asked and he shrugged. "When was the last time you ate?" I asked and again he shrugged. "Deuce you gotta take care of yourself... If I made you feel like this needed to be your entire life, I apologize. It's okay to take care of yourself, to take a break... to breathe." I said looking at him.

"I appreciate it, but it's not you.... I've been doing to to keep myself distracted. When I'm sitting alone for too long, I start thinking and I can't allow myself to miss him...." Deuce said and I definitely knew that feeling, there was a time when I needed to distance myself from Micah... that shyt felt like torture.

"Trust me... I know what you're going through, but there are other ways to distract yourself, it doesn't have to be work 24/7. Go out and meet some new people... find a hobby.... take a shower." I said trying to get him to laugh. "Go home, recharge... cry in the dark if you need to, do whatever you feel you need to do in order to get your mind right. This job isn't easy... and you need to be at 100% not just physically but emotionally as well..."