The Takeover (9/24/21)

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I could keep making excuses
I could keep wallowing in my emotions
I could keep pretending I'm working on myself

But anyone who talks to me
Knows I do it too much

So I'm done.

I'm done making excuses
I'm done wallowing in my emotions
I'm done pretending I'm doing everything I can

This is the time
Where I takeover my brain

I'm done with its shit.

There's two sides that's true
And I'm sick of letting my anxiety side
Control everything I do

I'm taking control back
I'm done letting it control me

This is where I take the reins.

When I feel my brain trying to take over
I'm gonna stop
And I'm gonna give it my logic

"I don't care what you're trying to tell me.
It's simply not true."

And then I'm letting myself be happy.

And while it might seem this is illogical
That this is simply not how emotions work
Just know that this is what I need

Medication only does so much
It's time I pick up the slack

And stop letting this control my life.

So there will be no more excuses
No more wallowing
No more pretending

I will be happy and I will enjoy it
I will stop letting my anxiety control me

This is my takeover.

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