I wish your sleep schedule wasn't so weird
I guess I can't complain
You're in Europe
You went to bed at a decent hour
But fuck, don't you know I need you
I'd call you if I thought you'd answer
You needs the sleep anyways
Today sucked
I couldn't focus at work
I got absolutely nothing done
Discord was down for what felt like an eternity
And I had so many thoughts
I couldn't even talk to you
I wish I had your number in moments like those
Now it's late
And I can't sleep
Because I had migraine medicine
And my thoughts are going a million miles an hour
And suddenly
I just can't get you out of my mind
And I don't know if it's because I asked God for answers
But thoughts of you came flooding through my mind
And I desired nothing more than to meet you
I saw me running into your arms at the airport
With your mama next to you
And I pictured myself having exactly one sentence in German memorized
Just for your mama
I imagined waking up while you're still asleep
And using google translate
To try and talk to your mama
You'd be so mad if you knew
You've always her translator
But I don't care
I love your mom
I saw us in her bed watching shows
Giggling
Stuffed animals all around us
While we stuff our faces with those cookies you love
I saw you running down the street
With me on your back
Late at night
I see us taking all kinds of pictures together
I'd never get rid of them
I'd keep them forever
Like I do the ones of me
And my lovely Irish ex
Because I know I'll never see her again
I never want to forget
I'll write everyday I'm with you
Document all we did
In my letters to you
I'll bring your Christmas and birthday gifts along
So I don't have to pay absurd shipping prices for them
I'll bring my clothes that match yours
Our matching bunny hoodies
Our matching Twitch hoodies
Our matching VCT shirt
Our matching necklaces
Our matching socks
(Why do we have so many matching things...?)
I'll take millions of pictures
And when I get back I'll show my counselor
And she'll be so happy for me
For us
This is the relationship
We've both desired for so long
We both deserved
In a moment of weakness
I turned to you
And I found the happiness I wanted
Although I cried through it
Because it was so overwhelming
I've been in so much pain lately
With the quietness between us
With overthinking you and I
I guess that's why I cried
Because it was a reminder that you're never leaving
For moments I thought I'd never meet you
But this reminded me I will
And that thing you said the other night
"I'm gonna visit you just to take a million amazing photos of you"
"Correction: of us."
It made my heart swell
I need it this year
This year is my year of self care and happiness
So I'm going to do it
I'm going to come meet you
Because I've never had such a strong desire for anything
14 hour flight will be nothing on me
I'll down some sleeping pills
And wake up when I get there
And I'll run into your arms
And you'll swing me around
And life will be good
And nothing else will matter
The world will stop for you and I
And we'll dream big
And we'll make big plans
And I'll be yours
And you'll be mine
