Technically we met
Back in 2020
Right around when school
Would've been starting for me
I had a girlfriend
We didn't really interact
Just saw each other in chat
Didn't really think of it
I actually thought you were a guy
Simping on Kew
Because you would join so fucking fast
When she would play Dead by Daylight
As I got closer with Kew
You got closer with her too
I was jealous of you two
She loves you so much
You two have a connection
One I'll never be able to conquer
You're forever her Valentine
She's forever yours
And it made me jealous
I won't lie
I wanted Kew to love me
Like she loves you
You were the cool kid in chat
The one I would never be friends with
The one who would look past me
The one out of my league
And then to make matters worse
You posted a selfie
And I found out
That you were cool AND a total babe
And it all started with that picture
I was fresh out of a relationship
Only single about a month
I didn't want anything to do with anyone
But when I saw that picture
My heart did that thing it always does
And attached itself to you
"I want her"
God what a dangerous thought to think
Especially as a lesbian
To a woman
Whom is most definitely straight
And yet it was too late
My heart swelled
I seethed with jealousy
I didn't know if I wanted to be you or with you
How was I even supposed to talk to you
You were a mile out of my league
A million times cooler than me
Jesus I'm such a loser
Our first few interactions
Came from another friend
Awkwardly trying to get us to talk
I actually creepily listened to music with you
Our friendship started weird
Completely random questions
Completely random times
Why am I so strange
We started noticing each other in chat
We clicked instantly
Immediately vibing off of one another
We finally started texting consistently
And what I found surprised me
Such a gorgeous woman
Bury beneath thick walls
Put up to protect her
She didn't want me to hear her voice
She didn't want anyone to hear it
She didn't want anyone to see
That stunning face of hers
And still to this day when I see your face
Hear your voice
I wish I could show you what I see
Because it takes my breath away
And to think
Cracking your shell all started
With an accidentally call
That you didn't pick up
I don't know why
But you decided to trust me
My unworthy ass
And I was the first to hear your voice
And before we called
I was falling
I was on the edge, trembling, looking down
All I needed was a push
And I heard the connect noise
And your angelic voice came through
And it was a shove off the cliff
Into a ever ending abyss of love for you
And as we've played
You've opened up more
As I fall ever deeper for you
You've grown so fucking much
From a woman who never showed her face,
A woman who never talked to anyone
To someone whose voice has been on YouTube
And now even on Twitch
And I look at the woman I fell for
And I see her recognizing her worth
My heart swells
And I feel so much joy
I'm not a witch who can brew a potion
Or build a magic mirror
Just a woman
With an endless amount of love for you
And maybe that's my magic all along
Love them until they forget
What it feels like to feel unloved
And unwanted
And I still think I'm working
On cracking your shell
Peeling back the layers
And there's a lot of them
But everyday I see you growing
Gaining confidence
Doing things you weren't confident enough
To do the day before
And it makes me so incredibly proud
I've told you a million times
I'll say it till you know I'm telling the truth
You're the most gorgeous woman
I've ever laid eyes on
And as I crack your shell
Your beauty shines through
Brighter and brighter
You've incased an angel
I want to help break her free
