Chapter ??? - Mistakes Made.
Day 152
Our group has fallen apart. Particularly Zyten, who has become completely useless. Medina and I had to drag him away, kicking and screaming as the great creature bent its head and lapped up the pieces of Talin. I could barely watch, I thought I’d throw up. We dragged him back to the camp, barely able to keep the Spinners away, and threw him down, Medina telling him to get a hold of himself, while I just watched solemnly.
Since then everyone has become distant and sombre, depressed even. It’s hard to motivate them, and it’s becoming harder to get up in the morning. Watching people die is something I don’t think I’ll ever get used to, and I don’t want to either. People dying is something you shouldn’t have to get used to.
I sighed, looking around. Everyone seemed to be awake, but no one moved. I felt bad for them. They were all such good people, and losing someone isn’t something they can’t handle well. Well, Jamie and Medina have stepped up, silently nominating themselves to protect the camp, along with Daggar. Day and Char have been doing a good job of comforting Zyten, or at least trying. Jason has been coming along with me on forest scavenging.
I sighed, going over to him and kicking him lightly with my foot. “Oi, Jason.” I said. He just groaned and tightened his arms around Char, who he’s been more protective over since Talin died. I kicked him again. “Get up, or I’ll leave without you.”
“Go on then…” He said tiredly. I rolled my eyes, moving away. Lazy a*s.
Avery sort of perked up. “Can I come?” She asked softly. I nodded, sighing.
“Okay.. Just don’t wander off.” I said, heading over to her and holding her hand, helping her get up. She just nodded happily.
So I helped her up and let her hold the strap I keep my axe on, so she didn’t end up somewhere else. I’d like to say she’s been getting better at coping with her loss of eyesight, but she really hasn’t.
We wandered around for a long time, not saying anything. Well, I didn’t. Avery spoke at me for a long time, I pretended I was listening, when really my mind is on other things.
Where is Talin now? Heaven? Hell? Some blank empty nothingness extending infinitely? Maybe a field of white flowers untouched by anything or anyone? Is she a ghost, cursed to wander these creepy forests alone? Is she being reincarnated? Is she watching from above, or a guardian angel for Zyten? Could she be a star? If she is, she’s one I’ll probably never get to see.
To be honest I’m scaring myself. Thinking of death is something I don’t advise doing. I always thought I’d have loads of time, until I was ninety or something. But here it’s different. Here death lurks around every corner. Here creatures and humans alike try to kill you. Here it’s survival of the fittest.
Here is a place where the girl behind me won’t survive. Where half of the people in the group won’t survive.
Where even I may not survive.
Who can find any source of hope in that dismal reality? Evidently, not I. It’s depressing, but it’s what it is. I just need to survive. I can live here, easily. I don’t need anyone. Eventually they’ll all die off and I’ll be on my own again.
I stopped walking, Avery bumping into me with an ‘oof’.
No. Don’t be so dramatic and depressing. Find something to keep you going. Find a goal, something to work towards.
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