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Anagapesis- No longer feeling any affection for someone you once loved.

•••

I had a good time. We talked, we laughed, we had fun together just the four of us. It felt good to smile again. It felt good to feel some happiness even if there was that familiar voice in the back of my head. I tried to push it away. I tried to forget. I tried to focus on my friends.

I tried to pretend that today's earlier events didn't happen, I have no control over them anyways. Porter and b.b. will be over soon, b.b. likes to bounce from guy to guy. They won't last more than a month.

Atleast, that's what I tell myself.

I pretend that a smile will fix everything. I smile with my friends and try to keep my mood up for them.

My phone dings, drawing my attention to that.

Lennon: Just got done with my layover in Denver, I'll be landing in about two hours.

Me: I don't see why you're coming home early.

I do I just don't want to admit it. The original plan was to pick up both him and Emma, but since Mom's incident, Lennon is coming a few days early to visit her.

Lennon: What, you don't want to see me?

Me: Maybe I'm enjoying the peace with you gone.

Lennon: We both know there's no peace in this family even with me gone.

Lennon: I gotta go, we're about to take off. I expect to see you at the airport :)

"You okay?" Logan nudges my shoulder to gain my attention.

"Yeah," I sigh. "I have to leave though. I need go pick my brother up from the airport."

They smile, understanding the situation. We paid for the food we had previously bought and head back to the school.

•••

When I first heard that Lennon was coming home early, I wasn't planning on going to the airport. I knew I was going to see him later and I didn't really feel like interacting with Dad and Zion. But Dad was main reasons I didn't want to come, ever since he found out that Zion and I went to go see Mom, he's been off. So I knew this car ride was not going to be good. But in the end I'm here, in the car, stuck between Zion and June.

I lean my head back, letting myself close my eyes. I can faintly hear Zion's music that he has blasting in his earbuds. Even over the movie Dayton is watching and the conversation Dad and Monica are having, I can still hear it.

"Can you turn that down?" I sneer.

"Can you turn that down?" Zion mocks, which earns him a slap by me.

"Seriously, it's annoying."

"Not my problem."

I groan and my head leans over in June's direction. Zion was back to being his snappy self. Making things worse, we still have a half hour the the airport, I close my eyes booking that maybe I can get some sleep since I didn't the night before. But tuning out everyone is kind of a difficult thing. As soon as I feel myself drifting off, Zion pushes my head off his shoulder. I didn't even realize I slumped down like that. "Don't touch me."