pretty thing ~ minsung

034.

minho's hand shakily pressed onto jisung's contact on felix's phone as he took deep breaths to calm his nerves.

he was about to text jisung like felix instructed him to and hell,

he was fucking nervous.

jiji ❤️ ( best friend )

i fucked isp so ba d subg

calm down lix

( call lasted 30:24)

minho decided to ignore it since he felt like he should not intervene and invade felix and jisung's personal conversations. he quickly started typing,

jisung...

jiji is typing....

fuck.

lix? whats up?

r u back yet?

incoming call from  jiji ❤️
accept| decline

"lixie?" the voice called out from the other line. god minho felt his heart explode just by one word.

"j-jisung?" the other line then went silent for a few seconds...

"...M-MINHO? gosh- p-please tell me thats you..." minho heard jisung's voice quiver.

"s-sungie...holy shit." minho tried not to break down into tears, everything felt unreal. his mind felt foggy but clear at the same time.

"i missed you so fucking much, min..." he could feel the sadness and relief in the other's voice.

"fuck...what the fuck happened minho? where are you? i have so many questions i-i dont really know what to say is- is this a prank of some sort? wheres felix? what happened?-"

"you're rambling sungie..." minho managed to crack a small giggle as tears unconsciously fell from his eyes.

"s-sorry...do you need me to pick you up? fuck it i will pick you up just drop me you location right now god i- i want to hold you so bad and kiss you a-and cuddle you i-"

"i-i know, jisung. i want to as well...i-i'll send you my location right now." it felt so...good. too good.

he quickly exited the call page and quickly pinned his location and sent it to jisung.

"i'll be there soon, why are you so far away sweetheart?" he could hear rustling from the other side of the call and a door opening.

"i-i dont even know what im gonna say to you once i see you..." minho confessed, he truly had no words.

"me too...i-im somehow nervous..." he could hear jisung's car unlock and shut.

"im coming, okay? stay on call with me.."

although most of the call as jisung was driving was silent, they both enjoyed the silence.

; tw; self harm

shortly after felix parted ways with minho, he decided to stroll around instead of heading back home, which was quite dangerous considering the fact that he no longer had a phone at the moment.

he didn't want to go home yet, and he definitely did not want to face changbin again, who was most likely either spamming him or talking shit about him.

he skipped down the pavements, receiving ugly looks from those around- not like he really cared about what they thought, he already knew he looked like a mess.

a few moments passed and it was now nearing 2am.

a cold breeze settled in the air as felix now sat at a train station, his grocery bag next to him as he swung his legs back and forth whilst waiting for the train to arrive, which would be in about 35 minutes.

he tried his best to clear his mind from changbin and his shitty life, he really did try. but after some time, it all came rushing back to him and a wave of guilt washed over him.

it never really goes away, does it?

it was no surprise that felix hated himself, so much indeed.

he felt like an asshole and felt like shit.

he ruined his only chance with changbin, the only boy who was patient with him and adored him truly. but felix knew that it was never going to last long, he didn't deserve the love changbin had for him.

once again, he felt so alone.

tears started to well up in his eyes as he slightly lifted his skirt up, observing his now faded thigh cuts.

with a shaky finger, he dug his nail into one of the healing cuts, drawing out blood by how hard he dug it in. he barely even acknowledged the pain, though it did hurt. he felt numb.

he deserved the pain.

he was a slut, a whore, and a useless cunt.

so he continued to dig his nails into his cuts.

~tbc

new chap <3 slightly short but meh

might update again next week x