Ordinary - (Dabi x OC)

Damned If I Do, Damned If I Don't

Violet POV:

Cellphone Reception: Out Of Service.

I let out a dreary, drained sigh at the information I already knew, pathetically making another useless attempt to dial Dabi's number anyways.

Sure. I can't say this is my proudest, most dignified moment-calling the guy three times in a row with no answer. But, then again, if my phone is still out of service atop this mountain, then Dabi wouldn't even be aware that I've been trying to get ahold of him. Therefore, it's not pathetic, because my calls technically aren't even going through. Right?

...please don't answer that...

I don't know, alright. Call me crazy for still wanting to talk to the guy after the nasty little fight we had earlier. But, ever since my little breakdown, no less than ten minutes ago atop this hill, I have the deepening urge to talk to Dabi, especially after using the image of him to calm me down from Midas' jewels.

The sad truth, whether I wanna admit it or not, the truth is that my heart has become so conditioned to rely on him now, in these past ten months. I always told myself to never get too close, but then I also never ended up taking my own advice.

How could I when his actions were always so caring? I always did say his words and actions never matched up. That's what confused me.

But, ever since the night of the fall fair-you know, after we did...the good stuff...Dabi seems to have flipped a very unpleasant switch. One where his actions actually do match his words for the first time since I've known him.

And, I don't like it. I don't like seeing that side to him.

It hurts me to think about-him treating me like everyone else. And, maybe that's why my thumb easily tapped the phone screen once more to dial his number...feeling internally panicked that maybe, just maybe...we are slowly starting to reach That Point.

The point where Dabi finally gets sick of me. The point where all of this ends.

While I told myself it would always happen eventually, admittedly I didn't take my own words of warning to heart. I underestimated how much I fell for Dabi, how much I've grown to care about him.

And, ridiculously, I was starting to think he might have felt the same...letting that voice of warning inside my head get softer and softer...until, one day, there was nothing left at all.

Can you blame me? It's okay if you do.

If anything, I deserve it, right? I deserve this punishment of heartbreak for falling in love with someone else when I wasn't ever supposed to.

I wouldn't be surprised if Touya somehow had something to do with this, wherever he is in the afterlife. I would understand his reasonings for wanting to punish me and make me suffer like this-for practically forgetting him and falling in love again so damn easily.

I'm sorry, Touya. I hope you're not too angry. But, if you are...I get it.

I also know you hold grudges though. Sooo, please don't hold a long one this time. Unlike you, I still have my mortality, and I'd really appreciate it if I don't spend the rest of my life with you hating me.

The feeling of the forest breeze brought me back slightly, causing me to inhale a bit sharply at the soft wind kissing my cheeks.