Doctor who one shots/imagines BOOK 2🌏

for this world is beautiful (13)

"How long has it been this time?" I glanced across at the Doctor, she'd been busy going about time and travelling when I had to go back home for family issues, but I'd just got on with it. She promised she would come back, but time just got on, so did I. "Oh, you know.. three years." Her face dropped, this was the longest time she'd been without me. "Three years?" Her voice broke a little, I nodded. "I was okay, Doctor. I made something of myself, you know? It's been a good little life." I looked down, as I felt her watching me. She was sad, I could tell and I knew she meant well. She didn't ever want to let me down, I didn't blame her either. "Did I fail you?" I shake my head, "No, Doctor. You never failed me, never ever say that." I frowned, as I look back at her eyes. "I left you for all that time.. I'm a monster." She mumbled, I stood up as I grab her hand. "Doctor, you allowed me to live a life that I never had before. I got to do things that I never had before.. and yes, it was hard without you but I had to. I had to try and be myself. I had to make something of my life." She sighed gently, as I kiss her cheek. "Thank you for coming back for me, Doctor. I really appreciate it." She nodded, as she watched me, but her eyes were filled with tears. "I'll come back tomorrow, okay?" She frowned, "Don't you want to stay? I thought you'd come back.. wasn't that the plan?" I ran a hand through my hair, "Doctor, I've lived three years without you.. I didn't think you'd want me back?"

"Of course I do, I've waited for so long for this. I've missed you." I nodded, "Okay, I'll stay. Promise." I went upstairs, as I walked into my old bedroom. It felt like old times, a part of me sometimes wished I could go back to the beginning, when we first met and she was that crazy lady with the weird box that could fly. I sit on the bed, watching the walls as I felt so cold and empty here, it didn't feel like home to me anymore. The worst part was still loving her after all these years, crying every night and praying she would come back to me. And the love I had for her was so deep, I couldn't move on, I never could, she was a part of me that I couldn't shake away and I didn't even want to. I did love her, I knew that it was wrong but I couldn't help that. That evening, I was sat on the stairs, we were laughing like we did back then, she looked over at me. "I'm just so happy you're here with me. I've been so alone without you." I smiled, "I've missed you more." Her smile made my heart melt, she was so beautiful and she didn't have any clue how I truly felt about her. "I've got something cool I want to show you." I stand up, as I join her at the console. "It's this machine that shows you your worst fear. How cool is that?!" I was a little surprised, but also afraid what I'd see, what she would see. "Go on. Try it." I was nervous, but also I couldn't tell her the truth. "Why don't you show me how to use it first and I'll follow after you?"

"Is this a test?" I shake my head, "No, of course not. If you really want me to go, I will." I place my hand inside the machine, shutting my eyes as I didn't want to see what the screen said. "Y/n-" I open my eyes, as I saw a video of the Doctor dying, over and over again. And I couldn't bare to look, I slam the screen shut as I turn my back to her, even seeing that was traumatising enough. "SO