Doctor who one shots/imagines BOOK 2🌏

if i asked you to stay (13)

"When are you going to tell her?" I snapped out of my thoughts, as Dan spoke to me. "What?" I look at him, confused what he was talking about. The Doctor had gone wondering off again, as she did. I should be used to it by now really. "About how you feel." I ran a hand over my hair, as we walked together. "What feelings are we talking about, Dan?" I laughed it off, but I knew exactly what he meant. "Your feelings for her." I sighed, "Do I really make it that obvious?" I look into the distance, as she was running off. "It's kind of hard to ignore it, y/n." I shake my head, "How do I tell her that I love her? It's been six years. I've never looked at anyone else. She's everything I think about." I admitted, "Don't you think you owe it to her?" I shrugged, "Maybe. I don't know for certain. She was gone for a long time- but it didn't change anything. My feelings never changed." I bite my lip deeply, "Just tell her. Be honest." I had thought about it, for years. "And do what? Ruin our friendship?" I didn't want to get emotional about it, but it broke my heart. I wipe my tears away, as we got back to the TARDIS. "Just think about it. It can't hurt to be honest, can it?" The Doctor turned to us. "What are you guys talking about?" I smiled, "Nothing. Nothing important." I was so good at faking my emotions, I did it all the time. "But, y/n-" I look to him, "Drop it, Dan." She frowned, "Have I missed something?" My heart was pounding, it made me feel nauseous. "Nothing at all. We're good. Aren't we?" He just nodded.

"Okay. If you say so." I turned my back to her, I really was on the edge of crying this time. I think Dan caught on, he could tell. "Hey y/n, how about you show me around again? I always still get lost around this place." I nodded, as we both headed off down the corridor together. "It's okay, let it out. Just let it out." I sobbed, as he held me close to him. "It's okay. It'll be okay." I felt like I was drowning, I couldn't stop myself. "I can't do this anymore." I take a shaky breath, as I lean against the railing. "What do you mean?" He asked. "It's been six years, Dan. It's too much, I can't be around her anymore. This is choking me up. It's just too much." I wipe my tears away, as I try and get my breath back. "You need to talk to her, y/n. This isn't healthy, keeping your feelings hidden all this time. Just tell her." I felt the heat on my face from the tears. "Tell me what?" Shit. "Nothing, I'm fine." I look down, "Oh, really? Because you know I can hear you crying from the console and I'm not an idiot, y/n. Can you just be honest with me?" I look back at Dan, as he looked away. "I'll give you some space." He walked away, as she came closer to me. "Well?" I look at her, "I've been lying to you. For such a long time." I admit. "Lying to me? About what?" She watched me. "We've been together for six years, Doctor. I can't keep doing this to myself anymore." She was confused. "Tell me." I wipe my tears. "I'm completely in love with you." I finally told the truth.

She stared at me, stunned. Like she didn't hear what I said, like I was lying. Shit. The silence was even more uncomfortable than actually telling her the truth. I looked away, my head felt like it was going to fucking explode. "Y/n. Why didn't you tell me this sooner? How long?" Oh, boy. "I've lost count how long." I whispered, "Jesus, y/n." She ran a hand through her hair. "I can't do this anymore, Doctor. It's absolutely breaking me apart that I can't tell you the truth. I've spent years hiding my feelings because you told me that you're too broken to love anyone else. I didn't want to make it worse." She frowned, "You kept your feelings from me to protect mine?" I nodded, "I wish you'd come to me earlier, y/n. I really wish you had." I felt disappointed, but not surprised. I knew she would react like this, I knew her and her ways. "Thanks, Doctor." I turn and I walk away from her, as she grabbed my arm and pulled me back. "I'm not done talking. We've not even begun this conversation yet." I was a bit surprised by her reaction. "What are you talking about? Isn't this the part that you throw me out and tell me you're done?" Her eyes softened. "I would never abandon you, y/n." I looked away, as I pull my arm back. "That's a lie, Doctor. You leave us all the time. How many times have I begged you to stay? Too many. That's the answer to that." I'd never talk back to her, but there was no going back this time. "I wish you'd just tell me how you feel instead of lying that you're okay. You're not okay. Look at you. You're a mess."

"Yes, Doctor. And who's fault is that?" I snapped, as I take a deep breath. "Come with me." She took my wrist, before we walked further into the TARDIS. We went into the library, where I'd never been before. "Sit down." I slowly sat on the couch, as she sits beside me. "I don't think you really have any idea how much I love you. You have no clue." I looked at my hands, as she watched me. "You don't show it, Doctor." I mumbled, "Maybe that's because I'm terrified you'll leave me and I panic." She had never been honest with me about her feelings, we didn't have talks like this. "When have I ever left you, Doctor? You're my entire life. I don't have the strength to walk away, even if sometimes it's the only thing I want to do." I kept myself together, as she sensed I was upset, once again. "Don't you dare cry on me." I broke back into tears, as she pulled me in her arms, she just held me in silence. I grab onto her tightly, as I close my eyes. "There's no one else in the entire universe but you." She told me, as I nodded. "Thank you." I wipe my eyes, as she kissed my cheek. "Stop crying on me, you'll get my shirt all wet." She smiled, nudging my arm. "Shut up, you idiot." We both laughed, as she slowly grabbed my hand. "Hey, Doctor?" She looked at me. "I think you're stuck with me."

"Thank god for that. I've never heard better news."