Doctor who one shots/imagines BOOK 2🌏

on the fence (13)

"Doctor, I just get this feeling that there's something you haven't told me." I glance back at her, as she looked down at the console. "What do you mean?" She asked, "You're keeping the truth from me. I can tell." She sighed, "I don't know what you want from me. This is a pointless conversation, y/n." I look at my hands, "Why do you keep lying to me?!" I shouted, as she looked at me. "Why are you making this into a big deal? There is so much that I wish I could say but I can't! Do you get it? I can't!" She shouted, as I backed off. I look away, as the silence felt uncomfortable. "I'm going to bed." I stand up, as I walk away from her and I slam my door. I pull off my jacket, taking a deep breath as I tried to keep myself occupied so I didn't cry. I sit down on the bed, as I get changed into my pyjamas. I remove my makeup and tie my hair back. My heart was beating so hard, it made me feel nauseous. I lay down, as I felt the lump in my throat. I really loved her, more than anything and it hurt when she shut me out. It felt like I was dying, it was the worst feeling in the world. I eventually fell asleep, when I woke up hours later and heard crying. I look at the time, it was almost three in the morning. I rub my eyes, standing and opening my door. I look over and see the doctor sat on the stairs, she was crying. I felt awful, but I didn't want to say anything and make it worse. "I love you so much." I whispered gently. Shit.

"I love you." She stared at the console, my heart jumped. I watched, not sure if she had heard me. "Why can't I just say that I love her?" I bite my lip, looking down as I lean against the door. Did she even mean me? Or did she mean Yaz? I just wanted to kiss her, but I couldn't even do that. "Doctor?" She looked back, "Oh, hi y/n." I sat beside her, "I'm sorry for earlier." I shake my head, "Don't worry. I'm fine." She gently took my hand. "Thank you for staying with me. I know I'm difficult sometimes." I bite my lip, "Don't worry, honestly. It's going to be okay." My heart was beating so hard. "Is there something you want to tell me? I'm listening. Promise." I sighed deeply. "Doctor, I- this is really hard for me to admit. But.. I think- I know.. I'm bisexual." I admitted. "You- you're Bi?" I nodded, "I've known for a long time that I like woman. I've always been attracted to girls." She hugged me tightly, "Thank you for telling me. I really appreciate you." I lean into her shoulder, almost in relief. "Thank you for being here." She ran her fingers up through the back of my hair, it felt so good. My eyes rolled back, as I held a moan. Fuck. That was the best feeling. I shut my eyes, as I lean back again. "I'm pretty tired, I'm going to head to bed." I stand up, as she let go of my hand. I was so gay for her, it was ridiculous. I went back to my bedroom, I lay down and I scream into my pillow. God, this was torture. Why couldn't I just be honest and tell her the truth? It sucked.

The next day, I woke up pretty late and I got ready for the day before I came down the steps. "Oh, hey. You're up." She looked so fucking good. She was wearing a fucking suit. Holy fuck. My eyes flicked down her body, as she gave me a look. "Did you just- what was that?" Oh shit. "What?" She crossed her arms. "Did you just check me out?" She definitely saw me. "What? No. No, I didn't." She raised her eyebrows, "Oh, really?" I can't breathe. This is getting worse by the second. I turn away from her, as I ran a hand over my hair. "What's wrong?" She whispered against my ear, as I felt her hands slide up my hips. Jesus. Christ. "I've seen the way you look at me." Was she flirting now? "Doctor-" she pinned me back to the console. My eyes widened, I'd never seen her like this before. "What is it? It's just like you dreamt of." How did she know? "Did you read my diary?!" She gave me a cheeky smile. "Oh my god, you did didn't you?" I was enjoying this way too much. "Maybe." I rolled my eyes, "You have no idea what you're doing to me right now." She chuckled, "You like it when I'm flirty?" I nodded, "You look so fucking good in a suit." I look up at her, as she ran her hand up through my hair, grabbing it. I lean back, as she gently kissed my throat. I smile, as I look into her eyes. "I don't want anyone else." She admitted. "The only person I've ever wanted is you." I told her, as she smiled. I loved the way she smiled. She leaned down, before she kissed me gently. I wrap my arms around her neck.

Oh, I could get used to this life.