Doctor who one shots/imagines BOOK 2🌏

not gonna make it alone (12)

"Maybe you should just go. He doesn't want you, he never did y/n. Get real. Wake up and realise that you just don't belong here with us. And you never will." Clara snapped angrily, she had finally snapped at me and I was hurting, it just became something that I didn't want it to be and it made me afraid. "Why am I still here, Clara? If he wants me gone, why am I still with him?" I snapped back, "He feels sorry for you. You will never be like me, you're just a side piece. And you don't get it, you just don't get it. You are just pathetic. And small. And no-body. So just leave, do us both a favour." I take a breath, "Fine. I will. I hope you're happy." I turn and I walk down the steps, as I bump into him. "Y/n?" He looked down at me, as the tears ran down my face. "I'm so sorry." My voice breaks, as I rushed out of the TARDIS. "What- y/n, wait!" He shouted after me, as I felt the tears cloud my vision. Why did it hurt so much? Why did loving him have to be so painful? I lean against the wall, as I try to catch my breath. Shit. This one was really going to hurt. I play with my hands, as someone comes and sits beside me. I look at him, he was younger, floppy brunette hair, cheeky smile. Very tall, skinny. "Hi." I didn't really know what to say, "Hey." He nudged my shoulder, "You look sad. What happened?" I was beyond confused, I had no idea who he was. "I- I think I've just lost my mind. Maybe a little." He frowned, "Why's that? Talk to me."

"I let someone's opinion get to me. I guess." I wipe my eyes, as I sighed deeply. "And what did they say?" I didn't know why I trusted him, but I did. "They told me that I'd never be loved. There's this man, you see- he's beyond this world. He's amazing. And- I can't have him." My voice cracks, as he watched me. "Don't say things like that. You know, this man sounds pretty special. And I don't think he wants to give up yet. I'm sure he loves you beyond this universe.. but he just needs time to tell you. He's afraid too." I look at him, "How do you know that?" He smiled gently. "I'm a man. I know how we think." I nodded, as I leaned against the wall. "Thanks." He gently grabbed my hand. "Don't give up on me. I need you more than I can even explain. Don't follow after me, just think about it." He whispered against my ear, before he turned and walked away. I sat there, stunned to silence as his words resonate inside my head. What did he mean? Why did he need me? And then it clicked. "Doctor." I whispered, I just smiled through my tears. I stand up, as I went back toward the TARDIS. "Y/n! Finally!" He rushed toward me, as he pulled me into his arms. "Doctor, just let me explain-" he cuts me off. "You don't need to say anything, y/n. I heard everything." I stopped, as his eyes softened. "What makes you think that I'd never love you, Hm? What made you think that I'd never look at you like that?" I wasn't sure what to say, I was so shocked. "Because you don't." I whispered. "Not when you're looking at me, yn."

I just smile to myself, as he gently cupped my face, kissing my forehead sweetly. "Let's go home."

"Sounds good to me, space man."